JUMP for JOY

2010-08-07T17:57:00.002+08:00

Life so far...

I have been going through some major changes in life..no longer a student..but turning into a financially independent adult eager to forge my own life..

Life is definately precious..our time here on earth is limited..being free to do anything I want without thinking about any consequences is a far-fetched dream of mine..

I feel like I have been living under a shadow..like a puppet..am I really happy?

Who am I?

I was hoping that through my job I would be able to find some kind of release..some kind of happiness..but I think I am taking a few steps backward..I see people differently..what they truly want from me..my relationships..what can it withstand..

I do not care if people believe me or not..I have a really simple brain..I have no idea how the world works..how people think..why do they think like that..Maybe I am not made to survive this world..perhaps somewhere else....

Where am I going?

My mind is in a whirl..Im lost..I don't know what to do..where to start..how to begin..

Someone help me.......guide me...

2009-11-01T21:28:00.003+08:00

I JUST TURNED 22 =s

Its been rather loong since i last blogged...

I am up and about and enjoying myself once more!!!!

Some updates on myself...I wanted to start learning driving, so my parents told me to see an eye specialist concerning some blurriness in my vision. I assumed that it was astigmatism or something similar..but...it wasn't =(..It's an eye-condition where your pupils don't react to light...it just stays at the same size...so im kind of blind if I look at any light source. Sooo...lucky for me...my short-sightedness, long-sightedness and astigmatism is around 100 deg for all...so I can still see things alright...but I have to put on specs now to protect my eyes cos if my degree worsens...there is a possibility that I won't be able to see..=(...the additional restrictions on lap-top and TV usage is rather irritating as well...But at least I can still see...=)

I just celebrated my 2 years together with Jason 2 weeks ago..=)...went to eat suki-ya at marina square!!! Yum Yum!!! Then had a really nice time walking around esplanade area....I can't believe that it's been 2 years already...time passes soo quickly...I am glad that we still treasure each other as much as before..or maybe even more...=)

And...yes....I just turned 22...Everybody else seems more excited than I am when i turned 22...Seriously...I feel like I have fallen off my peak...=s...But I am sooo glad that cos of my bday..I got to catch up alot with soo many people..*hearts*

First was Math gang...had a great time eating and eating and talking and eating again....haha...and out plans to have a LATA cum KL trip has been confirmed!!! Soo BOOMZ..hehe...Thanks for the sony headphones!!! I am a huge fan of SONY!!! and I love the colour you got for me!!!!

Then I met up with Biz Mag!!! Soo nice to see them again...=) Thanks for the sweet dress!!!! I love it...Gives me major BOOBS...whaha

During the weekend...I met up with SAI Clan....FINALLY met up with them...hahaha...had a nice chilling out session....talking about old times...and our transformation...esp LAO DA's transformation..whaha....and us getting old...and needing to prepare for wrinkles and what not...haha...OOOHHHH...I still have presents for you guys...hehe...keep forgetting to pass to you all...whaha...till next time...REMIND ME!!!

And also with family..had a good dinner with Jason's family and my family...Thanks for all the red packets =)

Last but not least with my dearest as well!!! Thanks for all the surprises and all your efforts to make me feel special and excited for my SHINGZ day =)..Went to Shangri-La to have high-tea..I love the ambience and the 102 selection of teas it was really BOOMZ....the dessert and service was quite SHINGZ though....dissapointed...We also had spags!! Something that I was craving for since I came back from faraway land. =) Then went for a nice walk up on the roof of Orchard Central...LOVE IT!!!! And the most superb cake from Cedele!!! Absolutely heavenly!! Then we went to sing our hearts out at Kbox at Juring Safra...Soo high-Tech...and nicely decorated cosy room....It was soo perfect!! Thanks for everything... and all your presents =) I know you spent a bomb on me this month...we can eat grass together from now on..haha

Now with all the celebration and slacking over, I have decided to continue with my FYP...zzzzzz...I am feeling so SHINGZ and stressed out over this project...only Sporean to be doing it...I am going CRAZY..I am understanding nuts about what my project is based on...Grrr..the though of having to waste so much of my time to do this project upsets me...ROAR!! I need all the encouragement and support I can get *hint*..haha..

And because of my slackiness this semester, I have to play catch up for all my modules..haha..I need to jiayou!!! Less partying and slacking for me lee...=s

2009-08-30T00:10:00.004+08:00

Back to Singapore...

Its been almost 2 months since I got back to Singapore..

After I left Sweden, I went on to travel Scotland..Glasgow, Edinborough, Highlands..and also England..London, Lake District..and also Athens..Santorini..Oia...

Lovely memories there...and after all that has happened...I wish I did not come back to Singapore after all...

No words can describe how I feel right now...I should have listened to myself and just pull out before it was too late...I knew how the outcome was going to be like..and I knew that I couldn't handle another rejection from odac..but I still carried on fighting this pointless battle that was doomed from the start...Looking back at things...I feel like an idiot for allowing myself to pit against this losing battle...I still do not know why I subjected myself to this...Is it worth it?? I was willing to make sacrifices...nobody wanted to give me a chance...now there will be no more chances for me...and I will live with this regret forever...I will graduate with the regret of not being able to accomplish and achieve things I set out to do before I enter the working force....no amount of comforting words will cure me...I will allow time to heal me...but I guess it will take me a long long long time...After going through this...I saw who my real friends were...and I appreciate them for standing by me and giving me support...but on the other hand..there are people whom I would never want to see again...I am not a sore loser...but if things were played fairly..I may not be feeling as bad now...I just hope I will pass this phase and be a happier person...As of now..I just feel like an incompetent loser...someone who can't hold her head up high after being rejected in front of who knows how many people.....

I just wanna say thanks one more time to all those people who are standing behind me...thanks..

For now..I have decided to leave odac..no matter how attached I have become to it...no matter how sad I feel that I am going to leave it...I have to make this decision to lessen the painful emotions I am going through now....goodbye odac...I will miss you...

2009-05-06T07:25:00.005+08:00

Back from Spain....and 3 more days to Svenska Tentamen[Swedish Exam]

Went to Barcelona and Madrid for 1 week...with transits at Bergamo, Italy. It was a really tiring trip because of all the sleepovers at the airports....but nonetheless still enjoyable...Shopping was the main highlight...however...due to limited funds...I tried hard not to go as crazy as I would normally be...so I only spent Sgd$160. But I really regretted controlling myself...I really like this jacket but I didnt buy it...and its driving me almost insane...cos its a Spanish brand and I will not be able to find that shop in Sweden, much less in Singapore...hai...oh well....I made my decision...

I only attended maybe 4 or 5 classes for this semester...and exams are starting...think I may start to panic soon...

I didnt do much studying these few days as I wasnt in much of a mood...I have been really upset over something...And its not something I can change....The feeling of being messed with...the feeling of having your hopes raised so high only to crash to nothingness just because of the mishandling of a situation...No matter how hard I try to get over it..I cant...I felt like I maybe over-reacting...but I am glad that there are others that feel the same as me...makes me feel less alone......because of this decision...I will be leaving uni life with a tinge of regret....I hope someone can help me or do something to change this decision...but I understand that its not possible...and I dont really wanna hurt others because of my wants and wishes....no matter how strong this desire of mine is....I dont think I have ever wanted something so much for myself...but now I am not able to get it...I think I will need time to live with it...

I really need to gather myself together and start studying for my exams before its much too late...

To my dear...thanks for standing by me,...and for being so nice and understanding towards me....thanks for making me feel so precious and dear to you....thanks for giving me strength and bringing me laughter...I love you so so much...

46 days more..and I will be back in your arms...I really look forward to the day...but you will be really busy with commitments and responsibilities...I hope I will be understanding enough...

I hope to be able to support you and be there for the things you do...and I am really proud of all your accomplishments....things that I can never do....

So...do me proud ok my dear?

I love you...

Missing you much.....
Your daughter, your girlfriend, your roomie, your bestie, your good good friend, your listening ear, your eating buddy and much much more.......
-Joy

2009-04-17T22:29:00.005+08:00

Back to Stockholm again & Spring is NEARING!!!

Back from all the hectic travelling...

First up was Pisa...e feeling of seeing the leaning tower in front of me was just amazing...filled with disbelieve that I am actually there looking at it...

Then went to Florence or Firenze...it was such a charming place...all the architectures of the buildings in Piazza della Signoria blew me away..The Duomo was majestic looking...it was like I was in some kind of fairytale land...climbed up a hill to this park that overlooked florence...the scenery i saw was stunning...There was a fake david there and I posed with him...haha

Next up Venezia or Venice...My fav place...the place of bridges, gondolas, streams, alleys and what not. The saying that if you don't get lost in Venice...you haven't really been to that place yet is so true....Throw the map away and just get lost!!! haha...we eventually found our way back...The Piazza San Marco was really nice...almost comparable to Florence Piazza della Signoria.

Gelato count : 16 scoops...hehe...all the tempting and exotic flavours....MUST TRIES of Italiano!

Came back to slack for 2 days then was off for easter trip!!

Made our way to Geneva...a place the sight of Ferrari, Lamborghini and Maserati cars on the road is not unusual. It was a serene place that shouted a high standard of living...I enjoyed myself at the lake with the gigantuous fountains that shoots up in the sky!! Not to mention all those high-class chocolates by Rohr...Woooooooooooooooooooooooot...

And then to Amsterdam...city of vices and of windmills, flowers, canals, bicycles and clogs. It was interesting to see the red light district, 'coffee shops' and the magic mushroom stores. I tried a drug called Space Shuttles...cost 17.50 Euro per 15g. If eaten in the correct amount intense emotions will be felt and beautiful hallucinations will be seen. I ate 5g only and experience a lost in control of my emotions...once I laughed I couldn't stop laughing..everything seemed very funny...haha...close to the feeling of being drunk but different..I was physically and mentally aware of what I was doing..I didn't take enough to see the visual effects though...then went to Keukenhof...also known as the Garden of Europe and is the world's largest flower garden...was really pretty...but I thought that it was not worth my money[23 Euros]..maybe once in a lifetime thing...

Last but not least...Milano...Land of high-fashion shopping...Coincided with Easter...so not much shops were open...got to experience the carefree life of italians...The Milan cathedral looked like a dazzling castle...it was beautiful! Then the shopping at Galleria Vittorio Emanuele II was eye-opening...The passage is covered over by an arching glass and cast iron roof, just standing there was overwhelming...

Gelato count : 10 scoops! Hehe...just couldn't stand the temptation...the source of my weight gain...=(

So...I am finally back in Stockholm...but going off soon on my next adventure!!

My dear friends in NTU who are taking their exams now...study hard ya...Im cheering you on...Will buy chocolates for those who mug like hell OKAY?? 加油！！！
All the best for your papers...

And dear...got special present for you once your exams are over...look forward to it!!

All of you must take care now...drink more water...and don't sleep too late...AND STOP PLAYING FACEBOOK!!!

P.S. Hope you guys have received the small prezzie all the way from stockholm..ha..
P.S.S. Tell me your choc preferences...=D

Missing all of you...
Joy

2009-03-28T23:03:00.002+08:00

Am I that bad a person?

Did I do anything to deserve this? For everything done there is a consequence...for every action there is an aftereffect....

Relationship is built on trust....if there is no trust....what is the foundation to your relationship? Can the relationship last like that? Will both parties be happy?

People who know me know that I am quite an emotional person...but cos I tend to hide all these emotions to appear happy..so as not to trouble my friends...I need an outlet...I need something to release all these feelings of mine...of course I can count on Jason...but he is not there all the time...especially when Im so far away...When things build up to an extent I think I cant control...I have to do something drastic to help myself calm down...

Those who know me know that I treasure my friends alot...without friends I am nothing...in this far away land...I need my friends more than ever...things are not working out I guess...

I need to get myself together again....

I learnt that I cant depend on people..I need to be more independant so that I wont be hurt so easily...I need to toughen up...

To all those worried people...I wont be hanging out with people I shouldn hang out with....I hope everybody will be happier like this...

I am sorry to have caused any unhappiness or hurt or disappointments to anybody...It wasnt intentional....

Lastly, I need to thank the Baking Girls...Doing those crazy stuff cheered me up alot...thanks girls!!

2009-03-26T08:30:00.007+08:00

There is no home like Stockholm...

So glad to be back from Poland - Warsaw, Krakow.

We stayed at a hostel there and it was quite terrible...there was this wierd old man...who was racist [ he chased us out of the hostel kitchen and said that we were rubbish...then this black guy stepped in for us and he got called black monkey..] He changed in the room while the lights were still on...*faint*...Juan saw his naked back view la...he wears 2 shirts..one on the top and one as trousers...he ties it in the middle with a tie...and the shirt at the bottom had holes in them n he conveniently didnt wear underwear...so I saw things tt i shouldn have seen...totally grossed me out...apparently european guys don't wear anything to sleep...maybe at most their underwears....so I saw lots of them in their underwears....so gross la...the price we have to pay for budget living...

Oh well...we went to a really nice polish place for dinner...had polish dumplings, pancakes, soups, and many many more....we ordered almost all the recommended dishes....hahaha...the bill came up to 250 polish zlotty which is about $125 sgd for 8 people...it was the glasses of water we called that killed us...$2.50 sgd for a small glass of water...*faint*

We headed to Krakow the next day to visit the concentration camps...namely at Auschwitz and Birkenau. I studied core history in secondary school...so it was one of my dreams to be able to visit these places. On the way to the concentration camps...we were shown a video about the history of these camps...it really overwhelmed me and my emotions just took over...and I cried...so many questions were zooming past my head....many whys....and mostly hoping that this tragedy will never happen again...Visiting the concentration camp was a humbling experience...Majority of the camps and buildings and things that were in it were destroyed...only a small fraction of what was left were displayed in the various exhibitions...The jews were told by the germans that if they wanted a job and were ready to start a new life they should go to these camps...we were brought to this exihibition where they showed the belongings of the jews...their shoes, pots and pans, spectacles...so on and so forth...there were countless stuff that filled the room and the thought that these were just a minor minor percentage of what was left just killed me....we were shown the process of the gas chambers...and how they were told that they were just waiting for a shower....The pictures of all the women, children and men unfit for tough work queueing outside the gas chambers happily...it was very depressing to see...There was a room filled with hair....once they were murdered...they were shaved and their hairs were kept to make blankets, jackets and socks for the soldiers...gold teeth were removed as well...and they had about 10kg worth of gold by melting all these teeth everyday...the magnitude of this mass murder was just unbelievable....I was glad we went there...the only thing was that we were rushed through everything and didnt get a chance to see all the exhibitions...the exhibitions that we saw, we only had time to see them briefly...also since we went on a saturday...it was quite crowded...

We then headed out to town, around the market area...it was beautiful!! The palace in krakow was also very pretty...Had yummy dinner in a small restaurant in the streets of krakow then headed back...

The program for the following day was sightseeing at warsaw...sooo many different kinds of palaces...haha...was really bewitching...ended our day with a pleasant polish dinner yet again...YUMMY!!! On our way back...it was really cold...so we bought a bottle of polish vodka to try and also for keeping warm...haha...

This poland trip made me realise how lucky I am to be living in Singapore where it is so safe...some of our friends had a fight and were beaten up on the train...they had to flea the train leaving all their belongings behind..one of them even left her passport behind...

Its nice to be back in stockholm...its nice to talk to jason again...I really think that being away from him has made me realise how important he is to me....and how much I treasure this relationship....Being away has also taught me to be so much more independant....I am glad that I have been given this opportunity...but I still yearn to be back...there is no place like home....and Stockholm is only my temporary home...

I love you dear....85 more days and I will be back in your arms again....I miss you....

2009-03-17T07:29:00.002+08:00

Thanks!

I was having major chills yesterday...was shivering non-stop all of a sudden and felt really sick...was quite scared and worried but didnt wanna tell anybody...but it went on for quite some time...so i told Gerald..cos I was talking to him...then i decided to rest early...cos we are going to poland in a few days time and I cant afford to be sick...I got up and I suddenly just somehow blackout and my legs gave way making me fall awkwardly...I was jerked by the pain i felt...and I realised that I had sprained my ankle...I decided to tell Gerald cos I was in so much pain....being concerned he told Juan and Justin to keep a look out for me...And being the nice friends that they were they came over to check me out...and helped me iced my ankle...made me laugh and feel better....

I am really very touched to have friends like these when im so far away from home...it really warms the heart....Juan even helped me do my laundry today! Thanks Juan!!! You are a great friend and I am really grateful...

My ankle is still swelling up...hope it subsides soon...it has too...if not I will not enjoy Warsaw..

Praying hard...

2009-03-16T01:34:00.003+08:00

OVER & DONE WITH MY EXAMS!!!

Im finally done with my exams!! Yay!! I should be able to pass...BUT!! The paper had super no QC...faint...4 out of 5 questions were printed WRONGLY...and it wasnt just some stupid typo...they were errors that affected the final ans to the question...so I had to spend my time re-doing all 4 qustions...-.-...And they didnt tell us at one shot...half way through the paper they told us about the first mistake, and then for subsequent few half an hours..they told us the other 3 mistakes...i felt so frustrated while doing the paper...grrr...but its over now!!! so YAY!!!

School is starting tml...no break after exams...so wierd..but I will be going to POLAND soon!!! Excited-NESS!!!!! haha...

Had a super mundane week...full of watching korean dramas while squeezing a little OPTIMIZATION into my little brain...then have to write essay and prepare for my final presentation....Im so glad that im over and done with 2 modules!!!

Today went to bake with Juan and Yuen Ting...we were baking chocolate chip cookies this time round!!!!!!!!!!!! MAJOR SUCCESS!!!!!!!!! hahaha....so happy!!! Our cookies were overflowing with chocolates!!!! Since we were all choc-crazy...we put in much more choc than we had to...but it came out GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOD!!!!!!!!!! SOFT on the inside but CRISPY on the outside filled with loads of GOOOOEEEEY chocolate cookies!!! Hehehe...really made my day!! Haha..We are planning to make puffs next...till then...hahahaha...

2009-03-02T08:20:00.003+08:00

Back from KIRUNA & BERLIN!!!!!!!

Its been a long time since I blogged..really busy travelling and meeting my datelines for school. Next week is the last week of my semester 3 here in KTH..then I will be sitting for my exams..and honestly...im not prepared at all...haha...passing here requires a minimum grade of 60%...hopefully I can hit that percentage...

Anyway...let me give you a recap on my life happenings....

Firstly, I am glad that you liked my Vday gift...I hope that it shows you how much I love you...

Then I went to Kiruna....its way up north in Sweden. The aim of this trip was to see northern lights aka aurora. We took a 16hrs UNCOMFORTABLE train ride there...when we reached we were greeted by sheer coldness....Drove the snow mobils to the cabin....by this time the coldness made any moisture in my nose frooze and blocked my nose...so I could only breathe using my mouth...it was a really disgusting feeling...haha...my hair and eyelashes began to freeze and turn white...the pain that i was feeling from the cold was getting unbearable for every extra second I stayed out in the cold. My feet felt like they were stumps...my hands were also void of feelings....everyone was scared of losing a finger or toe...haha...the temperature was -35deg celcius in Kiruna when we went there...had a nice bbq lunch and had some warmth in the cabin then had smoked reindeer pasta for dinner...reindeer meat probably taste like very tender beef w/o the beef smell...then waited for northern lights...but it was soooo cloudy that day...so we didnt get to see anything...oh well...there was a suana for us to go to...but nobody had the courage to take of their clothes...ha...slacked in the cabin and talked before we went to sleep...went fishing the next day...but gave up after 10min...haha...the temperature was just crazy cold...PAIN PAIN PAIN...haha....went to eat reindeer stew after that...YUM!! ha...then went to dog sledge...the dogs were crazy I think...hahaha...reached our hostels at night before dinner...2 to a room...the room was super nice and SHIOK la...haha...had dinner at Annie's...it was GOOOOD!!! So happy!! Then went for suana...haha...and off to bed...went to Ice Hotel next day...It was gorgeous...so pretty!!! Spent super long there...then went to eat nice buffet lunch...hehe...so satisfied!! Went to walk around kiruna town and it was time to go back...I overspent during this kiruna trip...and didnt get to see the aurora..but it was a great experience for me...though it was painfully cold...I enjoyed myself!!! I was glad to be back in Stockholm though...haha...it was too painful to continue staying there...ha..

Then it was off to Berlin[Brr-lin]...hehe...now it was the mega strong winds blowing at our face that killed us...haha...BERLIN is a SUPER NICE PLACE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ITS A FOOOOOD AND SHOPPING PARADISE!!!!!!!!!!!! ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The land of ritter sport....haha...bought 8 packets of ritter sport and 1 box of assorted ritter sport!!! hehe...This all started with spending an UNCOMFORTABLE nite at skanska airport...cos we had an early flight. Berlin is also the land of CURRYWURST!!!! YUM YUM!!! hehe...I was buying food and eating them every hour...haha...felt so bloated and guilty...but I just couldn stop and resist the temptations...I was overeating each day...just stuffing myself with food...haha...It was great to see the remnance of the berlin wall...and many historical sights...and many other great architectural buildings..old and new...shopping districts and all...Had a blast in Berlin!!! A little sad that we have to go back to Stockholm...

Dear!!! I got loads and loads and loads of presents for you and many more to come...hehe...I love you...

I need to start studying soon if I want to pass my exam...many other datelines to meet...STRESS...but Im playing so hard still...haha...oh well...hehe

2009-02-12T07:28:00.006+08:00

Love is in the Air...

To Jason : I am glad you like the present...Happy Valentines'...I love you...

To my friends : Happy Friendship Day!!! I miss all of you!!!

To my dearest family : Mom & Dad...thanks for caring for me..though im grumpy at times...thanks for all your understanding and support...I love you...To my brothers...I miss you guys too...To my grandparents..and my grandmother especially...thanks for your unconditional love...I love you very much..just tt I have not said it to you before...but i hope i can show it and say it to you one day...

Ever since I came to sweden..I have felt so much love from everybody...even though its cold here..thinking of all of you makes me feel warm again....Thanks for all the love...I love you guys too...

hugs & kisses

with much love....

Joy

2009-02-11T05:08:00.004+08:00

Vad jag har gjort den här veckan....

I have been really really really busy with school work and really really housewifey with endless chores....I FEEL HAGGARD...............

But I had my fun!! It has been snowing heavily for a few days here....so we had a snowfight on our way back....just that my hands were hurting so badly from the cold after 1min....it was PAINFUL and it felt like my hands were not there at all...but it was fun...hahaha...n its painful when the freaking ball hits u....grrr....AND I managed to build a unproportionately ugly shapeless mini snowman...hehe..

I have been cooking more than ever to save money...cos I plan to buy lots n lots of for Jason...hehe....DUN get jealous!! I got some stuff for you guys too....i'll be sending them soooooon...so keep a look out for them....its not vv ex...so hope you guys wont mind..

Anyway...had a great BIG find during the weekends with justin!!! hahaha...found a CHINESE supermarket!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I went uber CRAZY....so when i turn around..justin was like 1m away from me...grrr...he said tt I was embarassing him!!! But I was too happy...whahaha...Things there are still vv vv ex...but at least its a break from boring western food...

Went to uppsala yesterday....but i was asleep throughout the tour...was too tired...cos I have been up doing and planning something for Jason..hehe..soo excited....have been working on it for 2 weeks...and have missed 2 weeks worth of morning classes cos I couldn wake up...but its slowly coming together now...I feel really ecstatic...

Oh...and Im really having fun with the swedish accent...hahaha...its funny...and real fun when u say it!!

I'll be leaving for Kiruna on Thursday...coming back on Monday...Im going there to see the northern lights, or the so called Aurora. I'll also be dog sledging, ice mobil-ing, going to the ice hotel and what not...I'll be able to build a snowman as tall as me with the bountiful snow there....the downside is that its around -25 deg....so I'll be freezing FREEZING there...

Alrighty...love you guys...

Till another time!!!

2009-02-03T07:34:00.003+08:00

Im just an undergraduate...

Well...taking master courses is seriously not my thing...its really tough...esp when I do not have an engineering background...and KTH is an engineering school....ARGH...why didnt I research more before I chose this uni....Feel like killing myself sometimes...I can be so dumb...I hate school so much I have been missing all my morning lessons...since I dont understand why waste my time...This is lousy attitude..I know...I will buck up!

Well I have an assignment worth 10% for my exams...it is due on wednesday...but it requires proficient matlab skills...so im giving up...I have no idea what the bloody question is asking me...ARGH...im frustrated...Exams are coming up for me...starts early march...the first exam will be 5hrs...no calculators are allowed....I am freaking out....The longest paper I have sat for is only 2 hours...and I was getting restless....Im dead...tink I may just give up and walk away during the paper....damn it....feel like im wasting my time away here....I should have stayed in Spore to study...things are so much easier...I really regret coming here...but its too late to say all these...

Thanks dear for the encouragement...I am excited to hear that you will support me when I go back and overload...It makes me wanna go back now....but when I go back to Spore....there is my dreaded FYP waiting for me....stupid cow year is probably the bane of me...

2009-02-02T05:14:00.005+08:00

Busy Tired Me....

A whole truckload worth of things happened to me...and that is why I have not been blogging for a couple of days..I slept at 6am yesterday trying to complete my work...Really stressed with the workload here..but since I promised jason that I will update him regularly..here I am...no matter how tired I am...

It has been 1 month since I arrived...was starting to settle down but an accident had to happen to me..4 days ago...nothing really serious happened but I am still trying to come to terms with things...and trying to forget and carry on with life as per norm. I would really like to thank all my Sporean friends here who really stood by me thru this unfortunate incident...For the next couple of days I was really well taken care of...and I really appreciate everything that you guys have done for me...Thanks...

Well....I was slacking and nua-ing in my room for a couple of days....didnt go out....but it was for a good reason....but friday finally came...and it was time to grocery shop!! I bought many many many things!! Spent 250kr...maybe im venting my frustration?? But I was happy with my buys...but I may need to spend more wisely for the coming few days...

During the weekends....We cooked chicken curry with stir-fried veggie!!! It was super tasty!!! Yummmm!!! At least it was something spicy...Enjoyed that meal!! Also I had a corridor dinner, where people from my corridor will cook something from their home country as a contribution for dinner...Justin & I cooked Bak Kut Teh...apparently it was too spicy for them...but the dinner was an eye-opener for me...really nice special food from many different countries...then there was drinking...I excused myself from many drinks...but I was seemingly spoiling their fun...so I drank 2 shots poured half way...one was freaking ALCOHOLIC 55%...didnt like that...the other was a tequila...that was refreshing...one lick of salt then the shot and a squeeze of fresh lemon...nice! Then we baked banana cinammon muffins...or cakes...since we didnt have the muffin tins...it didnt really look like muffins. It turned out to be not too bad...no trace of cinammon taste though..ha...tasted like banana cake..Then we also cooked poached salmon...YUMMY!!!!! with fried rice & curry rice cooked by ME!! Wedges and Meatballs...Fulfilling....OK think I gained about 3kg in 3 days...argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Time to go back in shape...

I'll be starting classes tml....9am-12pm and 3pm to 9pm........CAN DIE.......9hrs of class tml.....

Sigh..........

Though Im really busy & tired...I just want you to know that Im constantly thinking of you...and that I dont feel complete without you...I will never ever get use to the feeling of being so far away from you....I am sorry that I wont be in stockholm on Vday...and I hope you will enjoy ur recce with other ppl on Vday...at least you wont be alone.....I love you...

2009-01-26T05:11:00.005+08:00

HAPPY 牛 YEAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Sadly I wont be celebrating chinese new year this year..MY FAVOURITE FESTIVAL...it upsets me quite alot...but I guess I have to live with it..

Firstly I wanna say a HUGE thank you to all my friends who showered me with concerns over the past week...you guys made me feel so so much better...THANKS!

Alright..let me tell you guys what I have been up to..

I went to a swedish dinner organized by my school - KTH (pronounced koh-tia-hor in swedish alphabets) student union. I had lots of fun...ha...we had 1 stockholm beer, 1 bottle of red wine, 2 shots [55%]...HUAT ar...haha...and sang many different drinking songs...it was a totally different culture...we had some tortillas wrapped with cheese and stuff for appetizers, chicken and potatoes for main course and something like strawberry shortcake for dessert!! There is a limit to how much I can describe with words...you can go to my facebook pictures to take a look...there are many stupid photographs of me acting drunk and all..haha..sooo...have fun looking at them!!

Then went to Casino Cosmopol to have our CHINESE BUFFET..to celebrate our CNY eve..since it was in the casino...we were not allowed to bring our camera's and stuff in soooo...i'll try real hard to vividly describe the restaurant and all. The casino was actually an old theatre building..Its soooooo nice on the inside...the paintings on the walls and the design is soo classy!! The restaurant was really posh as well..haha..soo happy!! But the food was...erm...so-so...given that we are in an angmo setting...the chinese food they prepared must be based on their perception of chinese food...everything was SALTY...haha....but they had lion dance and dragon dance performances...so it was pretty cool...the place was so festively decorated with CNY stuff...made me feel like flying back to spore immediately...and they gave out '福' keychains...and oranges!!! Anyway...after dinner the guys went to try their luck at the tables..and the girls just watched them...then because of the overdose of MSG in the food...I wanted to get a drink...and Juan and YT followed me...went to the water dispenser but couldnt find a cup...then there was this angmo guy...he asked me what I was looking for then I said that I was looking for a cup to take some water...then he said he could show me where the cups were..he brought us to the bar and ask whether we would like a drink..and we were like shaking our heads vigorously...then he just said let me surprise you... -.- ...haha...but anyway..we saw our drinks being made cleanly and took it from the bartender's hands...the drink was soooooooo NICE!!!! hahahaha....we chatted with the angmo...told him we were exchange students frm Spore and stuff...Basically we finished our drinks and wanted to leave...then he said let me buy you another drink...b4 we could say anything...he bought us another drink...then he said he had to go...So I guess he was just a really friendly guy with too much money to spare...We asked the bartender how much did one drink cost and she told us 164kr...we were STUNNED...haha...so we each sucked out 328kr frm him..WIERD guy..oh well..ha

Then today...we attempted a potluck reunion dinner..turned out ok...we had an overload of eggs though...haha...we had salad, rosti, omelette, 炒面 and kiwi...doesnt sound too good..but its all we have and the best we can do...

While we had the reunion dinner...I kept thinking of my family...of jason and his family...of ALL my friends that are so dear to me....I really miss you guys.........

No long weekend for me....its back to school tomorrow...

Happy holidays to all!!!

2009-01-23T03:07:00.008+08:00

Emotional...

Lots of things have happened...

Hmm..let me go through them as systematically as I can think....

First up..I have not gotten over the homesickness part at all....I miss all of you so so much...

But maybe because I am facing so many problems now that I yearn for home so much more...

We have always been spoon-fed...being singaporean students...having lecture notes..telling you to study this study that...everything is so well-organized...so when I attended my lecture here..I was in for a HUGE MEGA shock...the thing is..im attending master courses in sweden...cos they are the only classes taught in English..so i dun really have much of a choice..Well..I have no idea what ALL my lecturers were talking about...apparently all my courses are based on engineering mathematics..something that I have no clue about...Also...ALL my other classmates have already graduated and are studying for their master degree...so I was like the little kid in class..needless to say..I was stumped..eyes open WIDE...JAW DROPPING as the seconds go by...after a few more of these lectures i decided to drop them after a long and careful decision...I was really upset..cos this would mean that I have fallen short of my AU requirement...After some pep talk...I decided to buck up and try the most basic master course...I felt optimistic...then...my heart fell when I could not understand what the lecturer was saying...somehow during the middle of the lecture...tears were rolling down my cheeks uncontrollably...freaking paiseh la...but the stress and burden upon me was too much for me to handle....went to the toilet to calm myself down...but so many things were in the small brain of mine...questions of HOW?? and WHY?? So now..I am probably taking about 12AUs...so I'll be deeply SCRE*ED when im back in spore for my final year...and a BLOO*Y fyp....DANG....Mooo year is not going well for me at all...not one bit...

I also received news that, exams here are AT LEAST 4hrs....and that no calculators will be allowed...My heart sanked when I heard this news....JOY without her CALCULATOR = DIE..My mental calculation sucks BIG TIME....I am not only slow when it comes to mental calculations but also quite inaccurate...oh am I in for some DEEP SHI*....

Sweden is not internationally friendly...EVERYTHING here is in swedish..haha...the mails my school sent me, the mails the bank sent me...instructions for me to pay rent, internet banking...EVERYTHING is in swedish...Well I spent a WHOLE GOOD 4HRS of my time yesterday to figure out how to pay my rent via internet banking...GRR...

Talking about swedish...YEP...my swedish lessons have started and boy am I in for some tongue twisting and maybe some tongue cramping...haha...argh....they even say their alphabets differently from english...Well all I can say is I will try my best...haha...cos..its not a Master Course..I can live with this...WooooT!!!

Well course literatures, books and compendiums are really expensive...sooooooooooo....my poor poor pocket have to suffer....my swedish course alone..I have to spend almost SGD$100 for all the books and compendiums and stuff...very CHOR...

The only good thing is that it has been snowing a whole lot...really nice and pretty....but somehow it doesnt really calm me down as I thought it would have...cos im now in a whirlwind full of problems...and I cant seem to solve them...But im glad to have great friends here..so Im not that alone...and God who gives me strength and wisdom and courage...though I lost my transportation card...Luckily it was that and not anything else...cos that was the cheapest thing I had on me...besides my file, pencil case and stuff...Losing it taught me to be ever so careful...Not that I was happy to lose it in the first place..but..you guys get where im going...

I wanna thank my parents for not being angry with me...and being so forgiving and loving towards me...I love you MUM & DAD...

While I am here, the person I miss most would be Jason...Life is difficult without him by my side...Being ME...I am not independant...I NEED friends...I NEED to feel that I am not alone...I NEED to be comforted...I NEED a listening ear...I NEED someone to make me laugh...I NEED someone to be with me during my difficult times...I know you will always be there for me...I know you always make the effort to wait for me...I know you sms me and blog just for me....and I appreciate it...Thanks!

Thanks for doing so many things for me...I really appreciate...and all these actions no matter how small means so so much to me...

I am sorry I need to rely on people at times...Im alone here...with no FAMILY...the friends that I made here are all I have...I am experiencing a difficult period right now...I hope you understand...Maybe you don't know the extent of how upset I am...how worried I am...how helpless I feel...I am sorry..but because of our huge time difference..sometimes...I really have no choice but to turn to someone else....but I always sms you first don't I?

I am sorry......

I have to be responsible for sooo many things...besides studying..which is already giving me a HEL* lot of problems...I need to be responsible for myself...I need to cook, pay rent, do the laundry, do alot of admin work, alot of cleaning to do, corridor duties, grocery shopping, etc....All these may seem simple for you...but trust me...its been really tough on me...especially when I am alone...everything is a first-time for me as well....Plus everything is in swedish...

I just want to let you know...EVERY single day...I rush back to talk to you after morning class and then when you sleep I go for my night classes....that is how mundane my life is now...but I find that seeing you gives me the strength to go on...and I do miss you alot...I miss lunches and sometimes dinner dates to talk to you...I don't mind eating biscuits and yoghurt or what not instead...just so long as I can see and talk to you...

You say you don't trust me...you tell me to proof to you that I can be trusted...I promise you I will be a more independant person...I will turn to God in my time of need..I will pray and ask him for guidance...and if it is of any comfort to you...all my guy friends here in sweden got really NICE, GOOD, CARING and REALLY PRETTY girlfriends...so you really need not worry...though sweden girls are really pretty...Im ABSOLUTELY sure I wont fall for any of them...AND you are probably the HANDSOME-EST among all my guy friends here and the BUFFEST!!!!!!!! so there is really nothing to be scared of my dear.....WOOT....My DEAR DEAR is soo HUAT!!!

This separation from you made me realise how important you are to me...It made me realise how much I love you...

Dear...I really love you so so much..and I am missing you all the way from stockholm...thinking about you most of my waking hours...whenever I feel down, whenever I meet with a problem...the first thing I think about is you...I keep thinking very hard what would you tell me to do....but I am not as smart as you...

Anyway...to end of with a lighter note...CNY is coming...I hope all you guys will have a smacking good time!!!

2009-01-21T17:49:00.003+08:00

I wanna go home.....

First of all, STUPID CARELESS ME LOST MY SGD$140 transportation card...ARGH

Felt like killing myself..by the time I found out it was after my lessons..around 9+pm

Was totally at a lost..luckily gerald came and stuff..hai..but the fact still remains that im SGD$140 poorer and I need to buy another SGD$140 card to last me till I get my 2500Kr card..DAMN..just wanna kill myself..

Anyway..on my way to school yesterday..I fell down twice hard...my right hand took most of the fall...and its BRUISED now...

But this is the least of my problems now..I realise the modules that I signed up here are master courses...tot maybe cos its angmo country shld be ok..but I am damn wrong...nv see or heard what the teacher is talking abt...tink its a 1000 times tougher than what I learn in NTU..im SCREWED...I dropped quite a few courses..like seriously given up...now I dun think I can hit the min AUs requied of me per sem. They dun have lecture notes...nth...they write on blackboards....Im so disheartened...Really dun even think I can pass..so I just dropped it...dun wanna waste my time...Plus I was the only non-master student in the course...

Im just counting the days till I can go back and be released from all these....

2009-01-19T20:33:00.003+08:00

First day of school...zzZ..

First lesson of the day is over...OMG..its tough la..dun really understand..Anyway the heavy snow outside was much more interesting than what the teacher had to say...there is one china guy in class...the rest are ang mos...and some of them are pretty nerdy...dun get what they are saying...oh well..i just need to pass...By the time I got out of class...the snow was pretty light..so quite disappointed..cannot capture a nice picture...Now..I need to wait for my next lesson..at 5pm...it will last 4hrs...*faint*

Think im quite used to being alone now...soo..tink i'll be fine...guess its not too bad...i just have to accept it...

I just had lunch...some pancake stuff with salad...its an acquired taste I guess...wont be getting those stuff again..haha..

Went to a casino yesterday...MY FIRST TIME!!! haha...watched I***C [cannot announce that person's name due to a certain reason] played a tournament..he lost..ha..but he said tt it was fun...anyway...justin went to change for some chips...min bet was 100crowns...I was a pretty lucky girl yesterday...We were playing roulette and my guesses were 80% spot on...BUT CANNOT BE GREEDY!!!! So...Justin won 300crowns!!!! But he gave it to me and gerald to cover our entrance fee...and he was still 100crowns up...so he gave me a 50crowns ang bao!! Thanks!! haha...

And its decided!!! Gonna have steamboat buffet in a restaurant at the casino...HUAT ar!! haha..

Im trying really hard to build up my own life here in stockholm...so that I wont be a bother to the peeps back in Spore...

Should be going to Kiruna soon to see northern lights...play with dog sledge, snow mobils...see ice hotels and what not...=D

2009-01-18T18:03:00.005+08:00

BIG RED PATCHES OF RASH -.-

Yup!! that is what im having NOW..dunno why soo suay also..bad things keep hitting me again and again..hopefully its e last bad thing that will happen to me..

WE COOKED CHICKEN RICE YESTERDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! TASTED GOURMET!!!!!!!! HUAT AR!!!!

hahaha...I have not been soooo full by one meal until yesterday!!! WHO CAN RESIST THE HEAVENLY SMELL.....whaha...go facebook and you guys will see....feel like im a professional cook already...all the banter about opening a chicken rice stall here...whaha...sounds feasible!!! Our chicken rice just looks YUMMILY DELECTABLE!!! But it tooked us almost 2 hours to get everything done...The chicken rice, chicken soup and THE chicken. then another half-an-hour or so to wash everything up...COOKING is TIRING...haha

Anyway dreadful school is starting tml...i have lessons from 10am-12pm and 5pm to 9pm...tink im going to bring my laptop in and go on msn...whaha...the lectures here are like 4 hrs...DIE!!!

OH!!! and I had the best sleep yesterday since I moved into my room...Juan passed me her extra BED!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Now I do not have to sleep on the foam-like thing...my back feels good!!

Alright..now back to self-entertaining....have been doing that for a good couple of days..haha

But I shant complain....better than starting school...haha

2009-01-16T17:40:00.002+08:00

Im all BETTER!!!

Im not soo flu-ish anymore...yay!!

But ever since im here....my nose keeps bleeding like every other day...must be the cold air im breathing...tink it irritates my nose...argh!!!

Went to the bank yesterday and FINALLY deposited my money...I realise the rates against sweden went up to 5.58...i changed it for 5.26.....FAINT...a loss of 2560kr....*sobbing HARD*...oh well..this is life i guess...

Chinese new yr is coming and im sooooo JEALOUS!!!!!!!!! *pout* Feel like flying back to spore to have a good time...Not only do I have schoool during CNY....I also don't have the proper stuff to eat...WAH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Had quite a good time with the NUS peeps yesterday...haha...walked into this costume shop and made ourselves at home...after walking awhile we realise that it was SNOWING!!!!!!!! The forcast came true after all...it was really light snow...looks like many white specs in the sky..but actually they are really really really pretty SNOWFLAKES.......THEY ARE SOOOOOOO PRETTY....

Then we headed to Lidl to grab stuff to make dinner...Had rosti and sphag bolgnaise with soup...accompanied by vodka mixed with orange juice...Justin was desparate to finish his vodka i think...haha...the conc of vodka in my drink was quite high...but after drinking it sure kept me a little warmer...turns out that the soup was toooo thick....and the sauce toooooooo watery....whaha...we all need to work on our cooking skills...

Hmm...tt's all for my simple life here..

I miss everybody...esp dear dear...

Till another time...xoxoxo

2009-01-15T04:34:00.004+08:00

Importance of relationships to me....

Its different being 'alone' in spore....and really being alone in sweden....

In spore where I have sooo many great friends....awesome family....and a perfectly flawed boyfriend and his loving family.....I feel sooo happy...protected....and just carefree....

In sweden...I can only yearn for all these love....yearn to be in my dear dear's arms again....to be taken care of by him again....yearn to be with my friends....to eat with them..joke with them...even doing those irritating projects with them....hanging out together with them....yearn to be with my family...to have those times we poke fun at each other....

Each and everyone of you have been sooo integrated into my life...it seems wierd without you guys....I feel empty here...though i made friends here...its just different without you guys...

Being here will help me learn to be independent....but it makes me realise how vulnearable i am without all of you...only now do i realise how much i treasure you guys...all of you mean so much and more...I really love all of you...and I miss everyone of you ALOT!!!

I am soo very touched by the amount of people who sent me off at the airport...though one by one said they were not coming -.- but....THX!!!! for giving me such a pleasant surprise...

I look at all the photos that I have every night...before I blog...and it evokes a strong emotion within me everytime...

My school will start sooon....and I guess I will be vv vv vv busy then...cos im overloading like CRAZY...I guess keeping myself busy will help me in a way...keeps me from thinking about you guys...

I also wanna specially thank jason for staying up late everyday to talk to me...to cheer me up...to make me feel better...and to say i still look pretty to him...though i know i look damn retarded in my shockingly short new hairstyle....oh well..it will grow back sooooooooon i guess...

Lastly..I know alot of people care and worry about me...I will be responsible and take good care of myself!!! Won't miss any meals and make myself FAT!! haha!!

Bye for now....

2009-01-14T05:18:00.004+08:00

BIG BAD FLU BUG CAUGHT ME...

alright..hope I can get better...

I went campus today and met with my international coordinator...and he told me that the norm for swedish students is 30credits per semester...while im taking 55.5credits this sem...soooo he warned me that im overloading myself MAJORLY...hmm..oh well...see how lor...

Then went for this information session which was quite boring...was feeling kinda drowsy throughout...luckily bendan's iphone kept me alive...cos can msn...wooot...thx bendan...Oh..apparently exams are 4hrs...so we can bring stuff to eat during our papers...-.-

Then met with the nus peeps...went shopping....and i got my booooooots....FINALLY...haha...then went to eat dinner with them at LA R............ forgot the name...its a pizza place...the food was not bad....BIG servings as usual...

Headed back home after chit-chatting with them....done my laundry...dunno how on earth to operate those machines...my clothes are still wet now...Im hanging them in my room and hopefully it dries by tml...

Need to remind myself to ALWAYS bring a plastic bag with me....sweden is very big on recycling...no plastic bags are provided anywhere...you can only buy them...oh...and campus is really big...need to teach myself how to read maps as well...I also need to be prepared for strong wind currents outside universitetet station cos it swept me off my feet for a second yesterday.....Think im sounding quite random....

Okies...need to rest early....

Ta

2009-01-13T03:53:00.002+08:00

CORRIDOR LIFE....

In sweden we go by living in corridors....it should be a harmonious corridor...where everybody helps one another with chores...The first day I moved in...this guy immediately came up to me and told me what my chores were....and that im suppose to do them once a week...felt like punching him la...I just moved in ....GIMME A BREAK...

Had a freaking major breakdown today....just kept crying for no reason.....my eyes are tired and sore and swollen with a little pain now....sigh...how I wish I were back home...

Anyway...My hall is filled with angmo exchange students who are pretty much quite unfriendly...today..i went to the kitchen to take my yoghurt...then the whole bunch of angmos were there...eating loudly and watching tv...I entered the room said HEJ [pronounced HEY which means HI in swedish] and made myself as invisible as possible...when i was about to close the door for them...one of the girls look at me and commented 'she looks different'...........I rolled my eyes......and closed the door ever so softly...tink I learnt that I should be friendly to all races...I will think of this and better myself....

ARGH........我要忍。。我要坚强。。

2009-01-12T05:16:00.003+08:00

Alrighty....update for today...24km/hr windspeed....*faint*

Hmmm......woke up at about 7am today....2pm Singapore time....Im trying to adjust myself to sweden time....and I think im getting it!!!! its 11.18pm now and Im not asleep yet!!!!! woooot.....three cheers for JOY!!!! whaha

Alright...I woke up early soo might as well do something useful right....I decided to sweep and mop my room and toilet!!!!! so now i have a clean clean room...so happy...hahaha....took about 1hr plus.....and I was finished!!!! Just in time for SUNRISE!!!! sooo nice...hahaha...

OK.....today the temp was about 3 deg cel. ..... BUT the wind made it seems as if it was -10 deg cel. ARGH.......... FREAKING WIND...cannot even wear my hood properly la...haha...

Oh....Finally I found my rubbish dump point....soooooo inconvenient....not even in the building la...and....I finally found my laundary room...which is also in another building...I booked my slot for the washing machine and dryer for tuesday, 8.30pm to 10pm!!!!!!!!! Sooo mafan and inflexible right...haha..oh well...

Alright...then I went to eat the exact same thing for lunch as I did yesterday...cos of the price....seems the most reasonable out of anything....then went to walk around stockholm's OLD TOWN....nice scenic place....then went to grocery shop...wooooooooooooooot...went a lil crazy lar...hahahaha...bought 1kg worth of meatballs, 6 BIG german Brustwurst....HUAT!!! And of course need some veg....bought brocolli, caulliflower and carrot mix....DESSERTS!!!!!! Bought Mixed Fruit Cocktail!!!!!! And finally found a non-gassy drink in sweden....bought my ICED TEA!!!!!!!! and I will never go without my FAVOURITE YOGHURT!!!! Whaha....all these for about S$36...Soooo proud of my good buy...whahaha...

Then went back hall to cook....ROSTI and BRUSTWURST for Dinner!!! HUAT AR....You can ask Jason how GOOOOD it looks la...whaha...finally got some HOT stuff to eat...so happy!!! Living alone is tough..haha...glad to have ppl like Gerald around me....haha...THX THX!!! Dun keep saying I bully you hor....im very nice to you too lor...

Lastly...THANKS DEAR DEAR!!!!! For waiting up for me every single day just to see me and talk to me..... I LOVE YOU...MUACKS!! Hehe...

Oh and if you guys were wondering HOW COME THERE ARE NO PHOTOS?!?!?!?! I will be uploading them onto FACEBOOK from now on...

2009-01-11T17:11:00.005+08:00

Freezing....

Its my fourth day here....im still not adjusting properly...my throat is hurting like crazy....coughing...flu....hahahaha...argh!!!!!! Besides the weather...I have not adjusted to the timing here....I sleep at 7pm and wake up at 6am...hahahaha....I actually sleep early and wake up early for once!!!!!! Dad and Mom will be soo happy...

Singapore is a good place to be in.....I LOVE SINGAPORE....I cant wait to go back...Only when I come here do I realise the convenience in Singapore...and the CHEAPness of Singapore....and the weather of Singapore.....I wont complain about the hotness anymore......

I went to IKEA yesterday and bought myself a pillow...have not been sleeping well...stupid 2cm foam bed not very comfortable...plus I didnt have a proper pillow the past few days...made my neck super painful...and the weather is soooo dry....i wake up sometimes cos my throat is so painful....

Anyway...its tough to be alone...esp when u r a girl...you feel so vulnerable...nobody to protect you....the lack of company and a listening ear drives me to tears sometimes....but i have to show that im strong and that I can be dependant so that people wont have to worry about me...

Havan started cooking yet...cos the people in the kitchen always look so intimidating...argh...anyway...im going to buy my groceries today...and maybe i'll just start cooking today...

Today, I finish sweeping and mopping my floors.....just in time to see the sunrise...

Wah....I yearn for somebody that can take care of me....and to be with me....in this cold cold time...boohoo...why did I go for exchange...sooooo act smart...

2009-01-09T05:11:00.007+08:00

I have finally arrived in sweden...

FIRSTLY....I wanna thank all those who came down to send me off....Thanks to my family, Jason and his family, Biz mag, Zhi Cheng & Kenny, Stats Gang, SAI CLAN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The flight to london took about 14hrs in total...i was sitting next to an old italian man...Anyway I ate my dinner while watching nights in rodanthe..then i quickly fell to sleep...but something woke me up...i realise the italian guy was touching my lower lower back AND the armrest were up....but his eyes were closed as if he were slping...I imediately put the armrest down and decided to move a little further away from him...but his hand still managed to find me...so i decided to have my back face the other side...but his hand then fidgeted with my hand....tink he grabbed it once or twice..i was quite scared...didnt even dare to see him in the face...then...i just put my bag in between us..argh,,,make the rest of my journey very uncomfortable...my knees and leg hurt alot during the flight...i just didnt dare to move..wanted to go toilet lor...drank like 4 cups of tea....watched eagle eye...and half of forest gump...and I was in london.

I was sooo glad when the flight landed.....then went to make from terminal 4 to terminal 5 in heathrow...about a 15min ride..only to realise...my flight was delayed...so finally reached sweden around 7pm Singapore time...my mentor was there to fetch me....once he saw me he gave me a HUGE hug....but i didnt respond...so he gave me another huge hug.......-.-...so i responded reluclantly...He bought me a moose soft toy...haha...

Well, the weather here is freezing...everywhere is covered in snow....THICK snow....i feel vv uncomfortable in this weather...esp when breathing...sometimes when it gets too cold it gets painful to breathe....I hope i will slowly adjust....all in all I dun feel that I am suitable for this place....especially on an exchange since i have to do almost everthing by myself...I know that i am not an independant person at all and that makes it very difficult for me to be here....
There are still loads and tons of admin work to do....argh...vvv stress over tt...

I do miss all of you very very much.....countingg down to the day that I will see all of you guys again....

2009-01-07T00:32:00.010+08:00

HUAT BIZ MAGS GO TO KUKUP!!!

hmm..chicken curry for teabreak...whaha

the bbq dinner was plain SHIOK la...hahaha..really nice stuff!!!

OK!!! This is the highlight of the trip....OMG.....really 大开眼见..first time I played with fireworks!!! The fireworks really burst right in front of ur face...haha...like almost falling down on us...WOOOT!!!!! The fireworks make it worth the while to just go kukup again...of cos must be with the right company la...hor biz mags...haha

Gift exchange was farni.....xuan jie's present looked soooo CUI...nobody wanted it...we drew cards and picked our presents according to our numbers starting from the person with the smallest card...then one by one we are given a choice whether we wanna exchange our present with people who have a smaller card number...so scheming lor...haha...anyway i got this hanger thing from serene...its in my luggage and on its way to sweden loo...haha

Fishing!!! I look so ZAI right????? Whaha...I caught 2 disgusting wriggly EELS...argh...if you guys are wondering what's tt wierd looking creature..its a horse-shoe crab...its some pre-historic creature with blue blood...

Jump Shots!!! Superman pose was FUN!!!! haha...oh...and stupid xuanjie almost kicked my head in one of those jumps...-.-

We were tired of singing...so we decided to hide in a hole in the kitchen to take photos...whaha....managed to squeeze 3 people in 1 hole...whaha

Even though it was just a short two day one night...being with my dearest biz mags was soooooo much FUN!!! I will miss all of you when im in sweden...

2008-12-28T01:29:00.019+08:00

ALRIGHT!!! AS PROMISED....HERE ARE THE MT K PHOTOS!!!!

All of us met at 5.30am at Terminal 1 of Changi Airport on the 9th of Dec

We reached KK town at around 11am....booked into City Park Inn and we went to explore the town..went to a shopping centre and watch bolt....but...i fell asleep after the first 10min of the show...luckily only 5 Ringgit lor...haha...then went to sightsee..

Even though it was not a very wise choice of food....we went ahead to eat CURRY for dinner....endorsed by Lonely Planet de hor...whahaha

Woke up early...to sit a bus to Timpohon Gate....along the way we stopped to capture some nice scenery...

As there was some misunderstanding....we were stuck at Park HQ for a very very long time...so we took the chance to take lots of pictures...

We reached Timpohon Gate finally...after a quick brief...then started our long trek up to base camp at around 12pm...

It was quite a tedious trek...filled with many many LARGE uneven steps...

AND MORE STEPS....

I was from TEAM 1 lor...haha...needed to catch up with Xuan Jie and Jun Jie...Once we met Team 2 at a rest point...then Jun Jie was like LET'S GO...haha...Team 1 you Team 1 de dai jia...[To be in Team 1...one must pay a price]...DIAO...haha...so I stuck with Team 1 all the way...and finally reached base camp at 5.05pm...Base Camp was roughly 3200m above sea level..and we trekked a distance of 6km to reach that height. Went for via ferrata training at night..went to bed at 10.30pm..the weather and being at such high altitute was making me feel quite sick...Especially my heart..without doing anything it was beating very fast and VERY VERY hard...was quite scared and worried...not to mention my pounding head...

Woke up at 2am the next day. We started our trek to the summit at 2.45am...Though my heart and head were still giving me problems i decided to go ahead...since I was all the way there..might as well...we were trekking in PITCH DARKNESS....As I climb up...I could not breath in the outside air...it was too cold...breathing in was SHEER PAIN...so I wrapped my nose and mouth with my scarf...it made things a little better...but I was really determined...Felt like throwing up throughout the trek...Luckily my brother was there to cheer me on...without him...it would be so much more difficult trekking up...THANKS JOEL!!!!!!!!! Manage to reach the peak at 5.30am...By the time I reached the peak...my lips were purple for some reason...haha..we waited to see the sunrise...but only saw the sky getting brighter and bluer...ARGH...the sun got covered by this stupid cloud...-.-

Photos from the peak...4095.2m above sea level

The time we spent on the peak was much tooooo short...cos we had to go down to hit the via ferrata timing...The adrenaline rush I experience when I reached the peak was soo powerful...I pain I was feeling all went away...I was feeling so so much better...It was great!

We went back down to 7.5km mark to start our via ferrata...had abit to eat before we started via ferrata!!

We started via ferrata at around 8am...it proved to be much tougher than expected...At first it was FUN!!! it was the rock and us and 360 view of the scenery...We were so high that if I look at the horizon...I can see a slight curvature...Clouds just passing by you...it was GREAT!!! But then, it started to rain hard...coupled with the blowing wind...the weather made it so much worse for us...we were SOAKED and FREEZING literally...There were many interesting bridges...or more like just a rope connected by two rocks...haha..Had a lunch break before going into a very very muddy and wet jungle...and then more via ferrata-ing...by that time it was so difficult to move as we were feeling numb...and my POOR POOR knees....soooo taxing on them...have to support my weight..keep bending down and up..down and up...for who knows how long...My legs were trembling with every step I took...it was TORTUROUS...and the monotonous unclipping and clipping on of the carabina was sooo FRUSTRATING!!! My hands were so cold and numb...I had to try 2-3 times before I got it unclipped and clipped...Finally finished the whole thing around 2.30pm...then still had to trek down to Laban Rata. Time Check : 3pm

Had a change of clothes at Laban Rata and had a nice cup of HOT tea...but that could not stop me from shivering...Once I finish my tea I packed my clothes into my bag and it was time to trek down from base camp to Timpohon gate...a whole 6km down...I couldnt help but tear..I felt as though my legs were ready to give way at any time...Started trekking down at 4pm...I did not stop to take any rest on my way down...reason being...once I stop I don't think my legs will be able to continue...so no matter how painful each step was in my mind I kept making myself go faster and faster...I overtook all the people that left first and I reached Timpohon Gate at 7pm...waited for the rest to arrive...then we finally left for KK town at about 9.30pm...I was just EXHUASTED...You guys can count how many hours I trekked...didnt even eat dinner...went straight to bed...had fever due to being soaked in wet clothes for a long long period of time...Hmm..I just ate a milo wafer, tuna biscuits for the entire day...Next day WHITE WATER RAFTING...this was ENJOYABLE and soooo much FUN...sorry..no pictures...not very safe to bring my camera around while rafting...we did a grade 3/4 rafting at padas river...OMG!!! You should see how high or low the waves could go...my eyes were soooooooo HUGE...staring in disbelieve...Drank lots of river water as well due to the tons of water that came crashing down on us...We didnt capsize though...rowing was tough as the current was soooo strong...my arms nearly broke..haha...dun mind doing this again and again!!! We jumped into the river on several occasions....haha...it was really very FUN!!! Our guide made us stand on the ring of the boat and do continuous half squats...and he made the boat go round and round...the half squats part were torturous...

Then we went to handicraft market to buy many many Mt K shirts...whaha...and then headed to eat SEAFOOD dinner!!!! The prawns were even longer than Jovin's face lar....so GIGANTIC....but...cos of the amount of food I have been eating for the past few days...I couldnt eat much...my stomach just didnt allow it...

After which some of us went to sing Kbox...guess who joned us???? Prof Gan....haha...All of us had a blast...singing oldies as well...we had fun....We sang till 2.30am...then headed back to our inn.

I think I got to know more of alot of people during this trip and bonded with some of them really well...Im glad I went to MT K with this bunch of people!!!!! I also learnt that once I set my mind to do something...I definately can accomplish it...haha...

Headed back home with a swollen and hard pair of legs...haha...the part of my legs surrounding my knees were swollen from the over exertion...my legs were hard too...as in if you hit my legs... the meat doesnt jingle at all...haha...if you get what I mean...haha...I couldnt really walk..but I recovered in 3 days...

Feel like going up 1 more time...to catch the sunrise...haha..see how ba...

2008-12-23T02:15:00.004+08:00

I LOVE YOU...

Came back safely from Mount Kinabalu...will upload the photos soon....
Made it to the VIA FERRATA team....whahaha....I surprise myself at times....

Anyway....its 15 more days till I fly off.....and im really pressed for time to spend my remaining days in spore wisely.....but sooo far...its been quite cramp with biz mag work....haha....hope to spend much more quality time with the people i love before I go off...

There is only 1 thing to do 3 words for you : I LOVE YOU
There is only 1 way to say those 3 words that's what I'll do....I LOVE YOU

I love being around you....you make it soo easy for me to love you...
I cant bear to think that I will be away from you for sooo long....
I will definately miss you....
I LOVE YOU....

Im trying to allocate my little time so that I can spend time with my grandparents, family, friends and Jason....its been tough....very tough...especially when I factor in the work I have to complete before I go off.....

Im trying my best to go for all outings and to spend time with everybody.....cos I will definately miss each and everyone of you.....but please forgive me if I don't show up or do not have the time....Im really sorry...

Take care ya'll.....love all of you....MUACKS!

2008-12-04T23:23:00.004+08:00

I'll be going to the land of IKEA soon...

My exams are over loo...soo happy...past caring whether I did well or not...now im just looking forward to the things that are going to happen to me...wooot...

But first let me recap the things that I have been doing...whaha...im a vv vv vv HAPPY girl....haha...the things that I bought and the amount of money I spent....wooooooooo...haha...Sooo im really really broke now....but im sooo soooooo happy that I feel my money was well spent!!

Started my hols by buying a SONY VAIO CS laptop.....something that I have always wanted....SO HAPPY!!!! That left me quite broke...haha...but I carried on to purchase some clothes and even more lingerie..whaha...just cannot stand all the cute and new patterns...not too mention all the nice colours!!!!! Then I bought trekking shoes!!!! But I realise I bought a size too big...so now getting serious blister probs after training...But now bo bian alr...use le...cannot give back to change. Talking about training....seriously...shiong man...haha....first at bukit timah...climbed up and down four times...then run and walked briskly non-stop at southern ridges which is approximately 12km...followed by stairs training today...walked up 50 flights of stairs as fast as I could....another bukit timah training coming up.....

Some maybe wondering why I am training so hard...haha...cos Im going to trek Mount Kinabalu in 5 days time....woooot..

Things left to buy are probably winter clothes and stuff....

I have been so busy.....since the day my exam ended I have not spent a day relaxing...its always busy doing this or that....so shag...I have not woken up past 11am....and that is vv vv sad for me...hahaha....im a person tt needs loads of sleep...

Alrites...I think this hols will past vv quickly...I will be heading to sweden in no time!!!!

2008-11-27T22:19:00.002+08:00

DASHED...

My last paper was.....open-book...so that was why i didnt really study for it....maybe spent 2 days reading through the lecture notes....i regret my decision....i promise that i will be more hardworking for the coming sems...

I can throw my hopes of doing my internship module....its worth 8 AUs......im just extrememly extremely upset......cos if i do not take up the internship module....it means i will have to do fyp...with all the china scolars in my school....and that just really upset me....how can i fight with all of them....and i really do not have an interest in doing fyp......i hate research n projects n stuff.......furthermore....i will have to do it concurrently during school term, while internships are done during the hols. I've always dreamt of interning and stuff.....Im very lagging in my AUs as well...due to my stupidity, i did not claim my 15AUs of exemption.....and due to my laziness i never did any special sems....so im very very behind my peers...and that worries me....im vv stress about this matter...and now im hit with the news that i wont be able to intern.....im just very upset....

I was suppose to go out with bestie gang today....but i had sooo many things to do....book airplane ticket and went down to meet a sponsor.....was really damn shag considering the amt of sleep that i had in 3 days...maybe ard 4hrs...maybe im too stress....is it insomnia??? So really really sorry guys......and my phone died....so couldn tell u guys that i couldn make it.....really sorry....sorry...

The modules i want to take in sweden are all clashing each other....im worried that i am unable to take enough AUs there....its difficult enough that im taking all the master courses there....where all the subjects seriously do not interest me.....now there is a huge problem trying to find enough modules...i've already given up....i'll take anything that comes...

There are lots of things on my mind.....so many things to think of....so much things to do.....loads of stuff to settle....im feeling very uptight and stress out....dun feel like anybody can help me...wonder whether this is the reason why i can sleep......

I need to reach sweden embassy at 9am tml.....pay for my air tickets....plan when is my coming back date...shifting all my things back from hall....and many more.....will be doing all these alone...oh well....time to learn how to be independant i guess....

Will be taking sleeping pills tonight to help me sleep....if not my body will just crash....nite...

2008-11-25T16:26:00.005+08:00

454 is DONE and OVER WITH....

Im in a freaking bad mood....argh..........................

First, when i tried to sleep at 2am last night.....I ended up lying on my bed from 2am to 7.30am..tossing and turning but just couldnt get to sleep......I was freaking tired la........but I dunno why I cannot sleep.....when i started to hear the bus sounds and saw the light slowly streaming in....I saw the time and it was FREAKING 7.30am......super pissed with myself.

So I finally got to sleep around 8+am then woke up at 12pm......of course I had a headache from the lack of sleep.........grr.......then went for my paper lor....hopefully i can remember the tons of confusing equations that i have in my head the day before. Well, I decided to skip the last 2 chapters of 454......cos my friends and I thought that it wasnt important.....and guess wad happens????????? WOOOHOOOO.......MR. vv fat put in into the exam papers la.......
argh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! K lor that is like 1 question EMPTY.......another partially blank. So confirm around 40 marks no more le...#$^&#...I was soooo tired and freaking confused with my equations, I kept fumbling and was just super messed up when I sat for my paper.....ARGH!!!!!!!!! DAMN IT!!!!!!!!!!! Im better than this lor....k la....serve me right for skipping those 2 irritating chapters.....i'll probably get the grades i deserve this time.....

Going to sleep now....super tired........sigh...Hope the worst is over.....

1 more to go....

2008-11-24T17:35:00.005+08:00

From a young couple till now.....

2008-11-24T15:34:00.004+08:00

ALRIGHT!!! 454 is tml...

MAS454 is a mod with the most equations to remember ever since I was year 1....4 pages worth of SIMILAR yet DIFFERENT equations for MANY MANY different kinds of sampling cases...My jaw dropped when I was told it wasnt open book.....ok lor....just have to stuff all these equations into my brain and hope for the best...

The thing is I am spending so much time on 454 that I have neglected 328 which is on wed...I am feeling a little scared now...haha....but my brain works best only when it is in a relaxed state....yep....I DONT TAKE STRESS WELL AT ALL.....

Im trying to keep my studying momentum going....but due to my short attention span that is quite difficult.....especially when im facing numbers and symbols the whole day...sometimes make me doubt that Im actually human...

Cant wait for this most dreadful period to be over then I can be human again....have fun without restrains.....WOOOOOT.....see my besties and girlfriends and of cos Jason....haha.....

Damn,,,,still need to settle freaking admin stuff for sweden...

2008-11-23T19:29:00.005+08:00

I HAVE GONE MAD STUDYING....

Nothing is helping me feeel better...cant really destress cos I still got 2 more CORE papers coming up...but I can study cos my head is thumping like elephants are running...

I FEEL BAD.....WAHHH...

Hope this ass of an exam period will be over soooon...then i have to rush to do A MOUNTAIN worth of admin stuff for my exchange programme...

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!

Its a blue blue entry.

2008-11-20T18:46:00.005+08:00

Having a SLACK SLACK day...need to recuperate..

Had MAS316 in the morning...im suffereing now because I woke up sooo early...feeling damn sick...so shall declare a day of rest...luckily Jason is here to make me feel better...

About 316 today...argh...just wanna kill the wobbling jelly...SERIOUSLY crammed for time la...need to release my FULL BRAIN POWER until my hands shook like crazy....soo difficult to write lor....my words became wobbly as well..whaha..like jelly..my hands never stop writing la...and had a huge mental block bcos the stupid person had to say you have 15min left and I was only on the 2nd last question.....suddenly the words on the paper seem like it was another language....wasted about 5min to calm myself down...but still my stubborn brain was suffering from panic attacks....OH well....another down I guess....

Well, glad 2 papers down now....just hope I will feel better to start mugging again....then wait wait wait until WED....then I can PLAY PLAY PLAY PLAY!!!!!! Woooooot!!!!!!!

Tml I will start my mundane life of numbers and I...

Ta~

2008-11-19T21:47:00.004+08:00

One down...woooot!!

Malay is over!!!! Really had alot of fun with that language...never once regretted taking it...hope I did well.....compo was My Parents which I found ok...better than cita-cita saya...haha...yin...we spot wrongly le....In my compo I had a tall and skinny dad, who is good hearted but very fierce. My mom was short and fat but very friendly. I had to show off my vocabulary...so no choice...

Gearing up for my next paper which is tml morning...hehe...going to tie my studying hair again...going to force myself to sleep at 12 midnight tonight to make sure i can wake up super duper early at 8am...Never woken up soooo early for sooo long...i tink in like 8 months...

Woot..now going to prepare for MAS 316......

2008-11-18T17:17:00.012+08:00

13th Month coming right up...with my first two papers...

As promised...im gonna blog about our 1st year celebration...

We went to Mariott for high tea...it was not too bad...I totally fell in love with the desserts over there...they were SUPERBLY AWESOME...had a wonderful time just chatting and enjoying each other's company...felt very blissful..Well I'll let the pictures do the talking...

Thanks dear for all the times you stick by me...everything was not smooth sailing...but we definately managed to come out of every struggle and obstacle together...Everyday..we learnt more about each other..and compromise and make sacrifices to make our relationship with each other so much more pleasant...I am glad to know that I will always have somebody there for me...and I wanna let you know that I will always be here for you too...How I wish everything will be PERFECT..but somehow being PERFECT is not beautiful....Flaws sometimes make us who we are....and its love that makes us accept the flaws that the other person has...

Dear..I love you for who you are...temper and all...and I want to be the best I can for you...

13th month is coming up!!! I know we are not suppose to have a celebration or anything...but in view of us not meetin for sooooooooo long....and also the exam period...hehe...I got you something for 13th month...hint hint...you keep telling me you are craving for it...

Saya perlu belajar sekarang....Saya ada peperiksaan Bahasa Melayu esok dan peperiksaan MAS316 lusa...

2008-11-16T22:56:00.003+08:00

NO MOOD...

Hai..totally no mood to study and no motivation whatsoever....I am really not the studying type I guess...2 more days to exam and Im touching my books on and off for maybe 2 hours a day...Im seriously bored...used to be more determined and focused than this...yihui can testify for that...but that is during JC days...uni just changed me...Last time still got Laoda there to get me to mug mug mug...but now...studying alone with tempting distractions all around me is getting the better out of me...hope to get into serious studying mode before its too late!!

Just an update...I will definately be going to sweden!! The thing is the hall that I am allocated is a DAMN HAPPENING PARTYING hall...saw it on youtube and I nearly fainted...the parties are held along the corridors of the hall and its really like some club....

Will tell you guys more when I got the time...now Joy needs to get serious!!

Peperiksaan Behasa Melayu coming up...

I will also be blogging about my 1 year anniversary with Jason sooon....It was about a month ago..but better late than never...

Joy has to MENARIK socksNYA SEKARANG!!!!

2008-11-13T18:07:00.003+08:00

THE DAY AFTER...

Well I had this presentation the day after my birthday...didnt even had the time to rehearse for it......AND!!!!!!!!!! I was 1hr late for that class!!!! The teacher had to sms me to ask me whether I was going that day...haha...too much playing the day before....sooooo tired.....

Anyway the whole class got through with our individual presentations, and I was the last to go....due to obvious reasons........then!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The whole class started to sing the HAPPY BIRTHDAY song!!!!!!!!!!!!! I was really really very very touched....we were just a bunch of people who didnt know each other....This really made the rest of my day....special thanks to vincent of course....esp for the cute muffins!! They tasted as good as they look!! Haha....Well I guess this module really bonded this class like I have never seen any module did before....It was so interesting to see people of vastly different personalities and characters to come together to have fun. I had sooo soooooo much fun with you guys...and will miss all of you dearly.....keep in touch ya!!

And....THANKS once again to all of you!!

Sooo....this was how I celebrated my 21st!!

Thanks all for the wonderful memories you gave me!!

2008-11-10T03:08:00.014+08:00

THE DAY!!!!!

It started with a sweet surprise from dear...

In case you were wondering why sooo fruity?? I was quite sick of chocolate cakes...tink I overdosed on them....crunchy choc, banana choc cake...and what not...

Then....cos I had Malay CA that day....we made our way to school early early in the morning.

After school.......it was CAROUSEL time!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The food there really really quite good....the variety amazed me...

My make-believe-hotel-specially-made-just-for-me-cake.....whaha...so HAPPY!

Then stupid Jason keep rushing me the whole night to be back by 10.30pm.....cos he got test the next day...so it was eat dinner and go.......he supposedlywanted to plan a surprise party for me..but attendance was pooooooooooooooor...due to on-going tests...k lor...i understand...hai...wad to do...my bday always fall on these kind of auspicious period...was feeling very very sad actually...haha...Jason keep saying...see only I soooo nice accompany you the whole day even I got test tml...I will always be the nicest to you de...you have me can alr...haha..was quite touched when he said that.

Then at 11.30pm Jason called me....say he want to spend the last few moments of my bday with me....

Guess who decided to show up as well????

My beloved biz mags + Eugene + Shou Zhi and my dearest LAODA!

Soooo sweet right.....

I think from the pictures you can guess what happened....All the LIES......BOGUS-TEST-THE-NEXT-DAY.........WORTH IT.......whaha

Felt sooooo fulfilled after that......except for the getting whacked by a cake full of SOUR CREAM....................WHY wasnt it whip cream????? ALOT of difference leh.....the sour cream had this foul smell......and it coagulated...somewhat like yoghurt....

Let me tell you how I was whacked by the stupid cake......IT WAS ALL PLANNED AS I HEARD. Yi Hui was hiding behind some pillar behind the door....the rest were outside...so they carefully positioned me to a place where it was not possible for me to see yihui. They took the oppurtunity that I was sooooo HAPPILY AND PLEASANTLY surprised.....not suspecting a single thing......then they sang the bday song...and they kept saying MAKE A WISH!!! Now I know that those 3 words were the code words for yihui to come out FROM BEHIND ME to whack me with the cake overflowing with sour cream.....It was really the most awful feeling....I was breathing in almost ready to blow my candles when....there was this loud "WHAM" sound followed by total darkness and total silence...sort of fell to the ground in shock....AND the cream went right up my nose LOR....wee wee must be soooooo HAPPY...

Nonetheless...REALLY THANK YOU YOU...as marcus would have said it....to each and everyone of you who rushed down that day...

I also really need to thank the mastermind --> my dear JASON!!

THANK YOU ALL FOR GIVING ME SUCH A MEMORABLE 21ST BDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

There was still one more surprise in store for me....shall tell you more another time....hee

2008-11-03T02:45:00.010+08:00

THE DAY BEFORE MY BDAY!!!

Jason decided to skip school with me!!!!! Hahaha..

Since it was a long long time since we sang KBOX.....we decided to go KBOXING!!!!!!!

Haha...armed with a whole lot of new songs....we sang n sang n sang n sang.....woooo!!!

So shiok!!! Sooo FUN!!!!

Sang for about 4.5 hrs!!! Still have to be reminded that our time is up!!! But I think Jason's voice got permanently damaged due to too much shouting during his OMC...but...we still enjoyed ourselves...

Time for dinner!!!!! Sooooo hungry after singing la...haha..decided to head to one of our fav place to eat....SPAGHS!!!!!!!!! Woohoo!!!!

The food there always super super super yummy la....and the portion is just gigantuous!!!

I really had alot of fun with jason...so happy to just hang out and spend quality time with him....sooo enjoyable!!! Nice break from all the hectic school work...during this crazy period...Thanks dear for indulging me by sacrificing this day to have fun with me..

Now back to studying looooor....insummountable complains for my stats module this sem....esp for 454....totally catch no *^&$%^#$.....argh....totally frustrating me and putting me at a loss....dun understand anything until dunno where to start.....wah......

Well, when I think of e happy happy times that I had....given to me by jason and my lovable bunch of friends [be it from school, hall or odac]....it certainly helps me to relax....but still I got to snap back to reality....WAH......

Oh well, I got Malay oral in 8hrs time....WAH....dunno wad to prep so nv really prep...wish me luck though...whaha...I will definately need it...

Will update you guys on wad happened on the actual day of my bday sooon....

Take care all.....dun fall sick!!!! Drink more water...have more rest!!!!!!

Oh ya...must thank dearest esther cos she taught me how to do my photos like that...whaha...thx thx!!!

2008-10-29T00:43:00.002+08:00

ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

IM TURNING 21 TODAY!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-25T02:16:00.025+08:00

I'll BE 21 IN 4 DAYS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I had 2 bday celebration...1 with my friends and 1 with my family...

CELEBRATION WITH FRIENDS @ EXCLUSIVE ISLAND IN SENTOSA!!!

MY DEAREST BIZ MAGS!!

ODAC ODAC!!

Yong Han, Wei Zhen, Shou Zi

BEST JC CLASS 04S211!!!

MY BESTIES!!

MY MOST LOVABLE GROUP OF FRIENDS!!!!!!!!

MY DEAR...THE ONE WHO MADE EVERYTHIING POSSIBLE THAT DAY!! LOVE YOU!!

Special Thanks to : Daddy, Dear, Zhi Quan, Wee Wee, Yong Han, Jun Xiong, Serene for helping me do manual work. Besties for helping me with my dressing and stuff...Love you guys!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks to all for your presents!!!!!!!

CELEBRATION WITH MY FAMILY @ SEA VIEW BUNGALOW!!!

MY BELOVED GRANDPARENTS!!!

MY LOVING FAMILY...

MY COUSINS AND BROTHERS IN ACTION..SO FUN!!!

Special Thanks to : Mom, Dad, Dear, Brothers, Cousins, Aunties and Uncles for your presents and help!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-10-03T19:47:00.002+08:00

RAINBOW BY THE BEACH...

8 days more till my 21st party!!!!!

Really really excited!! haha..there are still alot of things to be settled but hopefully they will be settled real sooon.

At this point I have to really really thank JASON....he helped me through alot of stuff...planning, logistics and everything!!

I received news from Jelly Li that there will be mid-term exam on the 13 of Oct!!! Die lor...chalet and party from 10 to 12 oct then exam on 13th....But i tink for ONCE...and once only I will not study at all...I wanna fully enjoy my 21st...take time to bask in my peak...and not think of anything else..My life is not about school, not about my grades....my happiness is more important!!!! But then again if I fail that paper will I be happy??? Haha....heck man!!!

Thanks to all those people taking time off their studies to come all the way to sentosa for my party!!!!! Really really thank you!!! Hope you guys will enjoy whatever I have in stall for you!! It will be the last party that I will ever have lor [I think]....sooo you guys better enjoy..haha

Woo~I feel like a kid again la...the irony..haha..finally turning 21..but I dun wanna proceed from there...makes me feeel old. Oh well...life is like that...young at heart can alr...then I will be forever 21..hahahaha

OK...starting to crap le...haha..tml is En's 21st party!! Her theme is flower power lo... -.- haha
So excited!!! Never attended so many parties in one year before..haha

Have not been getting enough sleep recently cos I was busy busy planning my party...so decided to give myself a well-deserved break today!!! NO SCHOOL NO SCHOOL!! Didnt know I was so burnt out la....slept for like 18hrs!

okok...see you guys for my party!!!!!! Remember hor,,,SKIMPY DRESSCODE!!! If not my bouncers will rip your clothes off lor...haha..Who wanna volunteer to be my bouncers?????

Oh!! Zhi Quan...I permit you to wear banana leaf!! Haha..

2008-09-18T02:57:00.007+08:00

Insufficient Funds...

I heard news from Jason that catering is not allowed in Sentosa....and he also told me that the chalet i rented in Sentosa is super super small, hence I cant possibly have e party held in the chalet. Maybe outside perhaps...or at the beach??? But then I will have to rent tables and chairs to make my guests comfortable..which would cost additional money..Jason helped me call up coasters and bora bora...but they quoted an average of $45 per pax...If that is so...I will probably have to shrink my guest size....but then I don't want to cancel people off my guest list...To deliver my own food in I would have to rent a vehicle over the weekend..which would cost at the very least $150...and by the time ppl arrive to eat...the food will probably have turned cold. My cake is probably going to cost around $120. Seems like im going to be soooo bz that day...I have been holding back on sending invitations cos I dunno whether I should still carry on with the party....I dunno what other feasible alternatives do I have...

I didnt realise that I would be spending so much...all the additional cost are proving too much for me to bear...come to think of it...I could well buy 4 nintendo wiis!!!

And I still have to consider the cost of my family's party...which will probably add up to 5 nintendo wiis!!!!

I can fufill my wish 9 times la...

But family and friends more important than my wish list la.....so im going to have my party still...but.......

Just afraid that my guests will feel uncomfortable or awkward...then I will rather not have that party..

Thanks dear for being with me...and helping me...love ya!

Stressed Joy...

2008-09-10T23:24:00.002+08:00

Disappointment time and time again...

- Don't promise me anything...I do not want to hear another sorry...

there is a limit to waiting...
a limit to e disappointments that i can take...
a limit to what i can handle...
God promised us that he wont give us things that he knows we cant handle...
but im sure losing it...
n im crying out loud for help...

nobody will know what im going thru...
nobody will understand what im going thru...
nobody will know what im feeling each individual day...

days drag into weeks; weeks drag into months...
everything that i do slowly being affected...
n now its just slowly getting deeply affected...

when it warrants a phone call you dont call...
even when its free...

but what touches me these few days is the amount of care and concern given to me by my parents...

they call me about 4 times a night
to make sure im ok...
to make sure im safe...
to make sure i ate...
to make sure i dun feel that alone...
Thank you daddy n mommy for showering me with so much love...
I really do love you guys...so much so much more

tears flicker down to represent disappointment and dispair...
yet another trickles down to aknowledge love...

2008-09-09T00:25:00.006+08:00

A NEED FOR MY OWN PLACE!!!!

I've been down with the flu for 3 days le...think its the weather. Canceled tuition for the week...felt quite bad as i did it last minute.

My closer friends would probably know that im staying at my aunt's place sharing a room with a guy cousin of mine. But I just cant seem to get use to staying there. I really need my own space..since I dun tink I can get a place in hall now, im tinking of alternative ideas...maybe ask my parents to rent a flat near school. This lack of personal space makes me quite moody at times..I cant do things when i want..cant rest when im sick...cant study..totally not conducive. But im really glad and appreciative of my aunt and family for letting me bunk in with them...just that im so used to having my own space...

I want my own room near school...or my studies and health are gonna suffer...

My parents can sense the difference in me..and they are very worried...
See how long I can tahan till I collapse..

2008-09-05T21:21:00.013+08:00

THE OLD BUBBLY JOY IS BACK AND SHE IS GOING SWEDEN....THE HOME OF IKEA!!!!!

I've been accepted for INSTEP!!!! Coincidentally with my London Tomodachi...Haha...
I am heading for the ROYAL INSTITUTE OF TECHNOLOGY STOCKHOLM!!!!!!!!!!!!
Would probably be there for 6 months!!
Seriously beautiful....but overwhelmed by the paperwork that has to be done before I can get there.

Here is a rough idea of what the university looks like....

And the hostel room......

Not bad right...haha...

A room is 23 meter square large!!!!!!!!!!!
Comes with kitchen plus fridge, bathroom with own toilet and shower, well-furnished. But laundry room is in a separate building...And of course basic set of furniture which consists of a bed, mattress, desk, chairs, wardrobe, lamp.

Even though Sweden is in Europe, it doesnt use Euro...it uses Kronos...$1 Sing = $4.50 kronos. A basic meal there cost $16 Sing and a conservative estimated cost of living is $2000...which I will probably exceed...haha...I still have to open a freaking bank account there....with a minimum of 7300 kronos per month for the entire study period [part of the requirement for exchange students studying there.]

The Academic Calender...

Arrival day for exchange students Spring term 2009: Jan 7th
Study period 3: Jan 14 - March 6
Exam period 3: March 9 - 14
Study period 4: March 16 - May 15
Easter holiday: April 6 - 9
Exam period 4: May 18 - 20, May 25-27
Disposable days for reexam: May 28-29
Re-exam: June 1 - 10

Climate there would be as follows.....

Winter: Dec – March, -7 to 2° Celsius
Spring: April – May, 5-14° Celsius
Summer: June – Aug, 20-25° Celsius
Autumn: Sept – Nov, 5-18° Celsius

So I will be going around winter and spring times....its going to be cold!!!!!!

So now I have to look for the modules that I want to take in sweden...before I can accept my INSTEP allocation. So much work............but its worth it!!!

I feel very happy and touched...sometimes amused by my friends....cos they seem soooo excited for me...haha...esp mei yin and zhi cheng!!! So cute la....haha..like they going themselves...haha Of course not to mention my parents....though they would have prefered me to go to UWA..haha..cut their cost by half...but they are very happy for me as well...They are willing to give up our annual holiday to WA to save money for me to go sweden...SO TOUCHED!!! I LOVE YOU MOMMY AND DADDY...they are really supportive parents....but they can learn to be more lax and uncontrolling...haha...Im a big girl liao ok!!!!

While im on this topic................I cant help to think of all the people that I will be missing!!!!!!!!!!!!! My sai clan, school friends....and of course my dearest DEAR!!! Going there for 6 months leh......so LONG!!!!!!!!! But I know it will be a good experience for me...I will keep in touch with you guys via webcam!!!! PROMISE LOR...hahaha....good excuse to buy a better laptop with a better webcam??????????

Im so glad that Jason and I now are OK!!!!!!! Well not that all is well yet...but we are improving slowly I guess...well its better than nothing...I can see that he is making an effort to spend time with me....and just letting me have my way at times....I know he will be uber busy with commitments and stuff but I know I can try to stretch myself and be even more understanding and independent!!!

Studies now seriously suffering...........dunno wad to do now la....been ponning soooo many lessons that I cant count with my 2 hands...and only 5th week!!! My cores just keeps getting worse and more abstract....my lecturers are speaking english with HUGE chinese influence...I gave up deciphering them...it was funny at first...but its seriously frustrating me now...No idea how to do tutorials anymore....but im just stuck in this hole...sinking in...and things are just piling up...WHEW!!! Im TIRED.....

Have to go research on modules to take there looo....Soooooooo many freaking courses in swedish...driving me crazy!! ARGH!!

Ciao~

2008-08-22T01:13:00.005+08:00

GLOOMY DAYS AHEAD...

Who will be there for me when I need encouragement??
Who will be there for me when I need courage??
Who will be there for me when I need comforting??
Who will be there to wipe my tears??
Who will be there to just sit beside me??
Who will be there to make me smile??

I know I have many friends...many many really really good friends...and I really appreciate you guys alot...
But somehow I feel empty...lost...alone...
No matter how i try to be busy...

Im probably still trying to be ok...and reality is striking...banging hard on my front door to wake me up...

Im awake and feel the pain.

Normally im very consistent with my work...but emotions are ruling me and I have not started on any tutorials...I dun get anything in all my lectures and im not making any effort to understand or clarify anything.

Feel like ending everything...I dun like what holds for me in the future...

The only thing that im looking forward to is going to sweden...it will be the perfect escape for me...even though temporary...but it is the last thing that is holding me together now.

I know i will be alone in a whole new place...but it seems like a good place to start over...and probably find a renewed me there...

I miss the old joy...where is she???
I need her back...

Special thanks to zhi cheng for being so sweet....and yihui for standing up for me, being with me....thanks!!!

2008-08-18T14:15:00.006+08:00

BIRTHDAY PREP!!!!

okok...my birthday is more than 2 months away but..................its my 21st birthday this year and Im going to celebrate it with a BIG BANG!! Nothing is going to stop me!!! Not even the overwhelming costs!!! Haha..its only once that you get to celebrate being 21...and it goes down hill from there...-.-

Oh well!! I already booked my chalet for my friends!!!! It will be held at SENTOSA, 10 to 12 oct. Also, my celebration with my family will be at yatch club bungalow on 17/18th oct or 25/26 oct!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Woohoo!! Paid for both already....both ammounting to $360. Im now planning the menu and misc. stuff. Any suggestions??????? I wanna have seafood!!! But it will add to my already exploding expenditure..haha..Im just glad that I have settled on the venue.

Alrite....I really need to thank my parents. They brought me around aloha changi to see different kinds of bungalows. Chalet L, Biggin Hill, and many more...They even went the extra mile by getting out of the car to survey the surroundings and the interior of the bungalow. So we found this really nice, newly-renovated chalet with a superb sea-view!!! Can catch the sunset!! So we immediately decided to book it for my bday celebration with my family.

So...Thank you mummy and daddy..I LOVE YOU!!

2008-08-16T23:51:00.003+08:00

STILL FREAKING SICK..

Im still disgustingly sick....damn..Im like getting worse la..fever, flu, stupid cough keeps getting worse...not to mentioned sore throat..

Went to see a doctor 4 days ago and he said it was a very serious case of throat inflammation. Anyway..got 3 kinds of medicine for throat, 2 for cough and an antibiotic. According to the doc he already gave me strong medicine and that I will be well in no time. I felt better initially but....I have almost completed my course of medication but...im still sick with added on symptoms.

My tuition kid's exam coming up soon, so I promised the mother to give more frequent tuitions. Planned to have tuition today but I woke up with a fever..and I was feeling as horrible as ever. But because I already missed one lesson with my kid I decided to continue with tuition today. I cabbed down and gave her tuition...tried my best to help her revised..but I kept coughing and sniffing (I go to the toilet to cough and sniff which was ever so often)...felt so freaking bad..later i infect her..took a cab back home..took a nap and when i woke up..I was having a freaking high fever...so went to the doc AGAIN...he saw the med that the previous doc gave me and agreed that the med was very strong. He just gave me med for flu and fever..and if im not well in 2 days I should go back and see him again. Money sucking scheme?????????? I better get well lor...if not im going to be super fed-up.

Now im just feeling the after effects of all the meds I took....seriously feeling some floating sensation...and I feel kind of retarded...so im leaving all my tutorials aside for now. Not that I have started on anything yet anyway.

Anyway, a few people already know that I sent in my application for INSTEP. Since my school is new...there was only one feasible place to go : SWEDEN...so exciting!!! I will get to eat IKEA kind of food!!! Meatballs and everything!!! That is if I got the place and my profs approve of it...

I need to concentrate on getting better...almost 2 weeks liao....Im better than this!!

2008-08-12T23:25:00.004+08:00

SICK SICK SICK!!!!

I have been sick for 5 days and counting......so sucky!!!!!
Still not getting better.....stubborn bug doesnt wanna leave me...
But my throat is killing me.....LITERALLY....
I wake up at least 10 times a night because of my throat...and I cant swallow my saliva automatically when i sleep...have to keep going toilet to spit it out when i wake up...cos its toooooooooooooo painful to swallow...throughout the night i can take 6 lozenges...which is more than what i should take but i really cant help it...its just so so so painful until i dunno what to do...n im so tired that i really need to get back to sleep...like super 矛盾...
12hrs of sleep still not very enough for me...my body keeps telling me that its tired...
I cant sleep as early as I want...because of certain constraits...but i know i need much much rest...and yes lots n lots of water...even though every sip is a torture..
Think i already ate more than 12 lozenges today...something that im not suppose to do...oh well...
actually the lozenges dun relief my pain...it doesnt do anything actually...hai...but i keep taking it as some sort of console or comfort...anybody knows any special remedy????????????????
Its seems that im coughing more and my nose is getting sniffy...had fever alr...still having...hope it doesnt climb higher n higher...trying to stay strong...

Met bel n lisi today at can B.....first thing they said to me was what happen to your voice..haha...irritating bel seemed so amused...

Just celebrated Yin's Bday...went to waraku!!!!! hahaha.....
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Hope you like ur present!!!!!!!
So cool lor...im jealous....im stuck with e second generation one...argh!!!

2008-08-04T20:50:00.002+08:00

FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL!!!

Finally met up with the stats gang peeps!!! Haha...after sooooo long...super happy to see them again. We were stressing over our add drop period cos all of us only had 11 AUs!! And the electives and core we wanted to take did not have any vacancies...so we all decided to appeal.

Then we went to our new school..newest school in ntu...we have cushioned seats in LTs!! Totally made my day...but i found out tt mr jelly is lecturing our class...argh!!! He cant speak english for nuts...had a super unfruitful lesson with him today...

I was also super happy to see bubble tea in can B!!! But tt's e only thing i would purchase in can B unless im terribly hungry....

I saw Yi Hui today......cant get e fact tt she's got a new roomie....n im no longer her roomie..but it was nice to see her again..

I think some of my friends know what im exactly going thru right now..

Thanks for all your support and encouragements...so that my mind will try to comprehend wad is actually happening...

Mostly thanks for keeping me occupied and busy...so that my mind wont wonder

I love you guys...I really wouldn know wad to do without you guys...

THANKS!!!

2008-08-04T01:32:00.006+08:00

Is there more to my life?

I feel that my life is so meaningless now...
im trying to be someone im not...
I can only show the real me to my friends now...
Even then..sometimes I have to put on a fake smile...

Should I carry on this charade?
Will this do any good to us?
Should we carry on or just stop here?

Im definately at an all time low now....probably beyond depressed...
I have never felt like that before..
I feel so vulnerable...but you don't realise anything...
I have to keep so much to myself...
I never requested much from you...
Yet I feel like I have many demands to obey...

Im not in any mood to do anything now....
Not even shopping...

Lost all my appetite...

All I look forward to now is seeing my friends again...

Im trying my best to be as independent and self-reliant as I can be...
Im fine with not meeting during school days...and no phone calls as well...
I can live with it...

2008-08-02T01:25:00.002+08:00

FRIENDS...

True friends...

Scolds like a dad...

Cares like a mom...

Teases like a sister...

Irritates like a brother...

And...

Loves you more than a lover...

To all my friends...thanks for all your support and concern...
All your advices and company...
All your comforting and cheering words...
I love you all!!!

2008-07-31T00:10:00.012+08:00

DEPRESSED JOY

I have never cried sooo much in such a looong time.....i literally cried myself to sleep...was only able to get to sleep at 6am in the morning...whenever im awake n alone...i just cry....i've never felt like tt in such a loong looong time....

Still im trying to occupy myself...packing my days with activities...even though im really not in the mood...its just a nice temporary escape...

Through these tough times do i really see who my close friends are....and i really thank god for each and every one of them....thx for accompanying me..thx for all the HTHTs...thx for just being there...thx for holding me up when im falling down...thx for cheering me up when im down...

i've probably been wearing a facade...i've not been good and i've not been happy at all...and i dread the starting of school. So many questions, so many doubts but yet no answers...

Do i really count for sth? Does hearing me cry make you feel anything? Not knowing how i've been or what i've been doing...does that bother you?

A simple sms or a call.....doesnt need much effort...or maybe you feel that its not worth it or maybe not even necessary...

So many responsibilities to uphold...so many tasks to do...will you have enough time? It scares me to just think of it...the thought of it just makes me cry...

Your apologies are so meaningless and empty...i really dun want to hear another sorry...

While walking back home...i was crying...i have sunk much too deep to pull myself out...uncertain about the future...

Now i can only hang on tightly to my friends........

But coming to think of me not having a hall....my time with my friends will most probably be a limited one...and that saddens me..

2008-07-29T23:41:00.060+08:00

SCHOOL IS STARTING AGAIN.....

Time really flies...school is starting in less than one week!!!!

So not prepared for school this time round...i didnt even get a hall. Im actually very bumped about not getting a hall...and i dread to think of the time i need to spend traveling to and from school. The thought of spending at least 4hrs a day on traveling just kills me.....i probably wont be in the mood to study and stuff...

Anyway..jason will be really bz this coming sem..with his hall activities...and odac stuff. Im already experiencing the first phase of it..his hall camp..one sms a day perhaps...the phases to come will be his hall dnd and odac main comm. I'll probably have to self-entertain myself throughout the whole of my yr 3.

On a happier note, my jc batch guys are coming to ntu!!! Great time to catch up with them..have to occupy myself with more activities..and make myself bz so tt i wont be so bored....but then again my travelling time will occupy alot of my time...

Just what have i been doing for this holiday????????????????????
Seems like nothing much...but here goes...

Celebrated Jason's 22nd Bdae....

It was quite an eventful day...was planning to go wild wild wet but...it had to be close on tuesdays of all days..haha

I wanted to bring him to carnivore for a meal since he is a meat-lover......but he wanted me to whip up 3 meals for him instead...

1st : Sushi!!!

Then time for cake!!!
Bought an awfully chocolate cake for him..

After which a planned secret biz mag bdae surprise for him....but i wasnt vv good at lying...

We were so happening-ly noisy that the friendly neighbourhood police had to drop by...

Thanks biz mag!!!!!!

Next meal : Chicken and Pork Katsu plus clam miso soup!!!

Last Meal : Aglio Olio with Bacon, Sausage and Shitake plus Garlic Bread and Clam Chowder..

I was really extremely exhausted after those 2 days but seeing the smile on his face made me feel that everything that i have done was worth it...

After which I was really bz with work...almost died of exhaustion...seriously overworked..and still had to help out in pumpfest...overnight packing n stuff like tt...I almost collapsed..............My life was so packed till I didnt have the chance to go out with my math gang peeps...

Then came bei's bdae...i got lost for more than 1 hr while trying to get there....keep taking the wrong bus...and when i took the right bus i got off the wrong stop...
Happy Bday same species!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Love you lots!!!!!

Jason wanted to try my cheesecake...so I decided to make oreo cheesecake and rum & raisin cheesecake for him...

Then comes my GENTING trip!!!!!

Had lots of fun in the arcade!!!!

At the Motion Master....

At Ripley's......

Happy Happy Times.....

And of course SHOPPING!!!!!!!!!!

After which we went KL!!! Which is all about SHOPPING!!!!!!!!

Just have to buy donuts when i see them...haha

At Jalan Petaling, Chee Chong Kai..

Shopping @ Mega-mall!!!!!!

Then came FOOT'08....I was in DARA!!

My Station Game at ADM...Yi Hui and I waited and waited till it rained.....

Lunch @ Crystal Jade!!!

After which we made our way to endau rompin for dinner!!

4 Wheel Drive into camp site in the stormy weather....was bumpier than usual..

Then time for our super HUAT supper!! Cooked by my dearest wee wee!!!

So HUAT that people had to fight for it....

See all the happy peeps!!

While waiting for the freshies to arrive.......

Then my SP came to ask me during lunch...

Weisi just had to steal the bear's eyes........

Waterfall @ Tinggi!!!!

Had to advertise for Deuter...haha

4 WD back again.....had to stop halfway cos of wee......can you spot him???? haha...

Reached Bekok town....where i tink everybody was starving...

Then everybody started to get into the durian craze....

Photo-Whoring while waiting for freshies to eat their lunch...

Dinner @ the duck rice place in JB

I can never say no to secret recipe's cakes...bought 5 slices!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SP nite!! Pyjamas theme...-.-

Laoda's Bdae was next....

It was a sch uniform theme....and my mom threw all my uniform except my pri sch girl brigade uniform....cos she claim i had sooo many badges on them it would be a waste to throw away...but i wanted to support laoda's theme so i decided to squeeze into them...received lots of laughs though...cos not many ppl followed the theme...make me feel sooo stupid lor..haha

Talking about yi hui...hai..she has a new roomie...she is no longer my roomie cos i didnt manage to get a room...that fact is starting to sink in as sch is starting...makes me upset...i will definately miss laoda alot ALOT ALOT!!

Happy Birthday my dearest friend!! I love YOU!!

Then came Post FOOT!!

Our snacks!!

Dinner @ Terra....erm..i wont recommend anybody to go there...

2008-05-11T14:33:00.004+08:00

EXAMS ARE OVER!!!!!!!!!

OK..i know this is a super overdue post...haha..but yes exams are finally over!!! Even though I know I wont be doing well this sem...I persuaded myself to fully enjoy my holiday...treat it as a recharging kind of thing.

The first major thing i did after my exams was to bake apple crumble for Jason..Not my idea of relaxing and slacking...but he looked like he really wanted me to bake something for him. It was PERFECT!!! It really tasted super GOOD!!! haha..so proud of myself..first time baking it somemore!! Jason was really happy..haha

I have been just slacking..watching my serials and stuff...really like the nothing-to-do feeling...haha...especially after busy hectic exam stress.

Recently went to endau rompin with FOOTcom for recce..was FUN!!! The waterfall was much much bigger than I expected!! During the trek, laoda saved me from 3 leeches!!!! But the 3rd leech bit me already...so my whole slippers were soaking in blood...and silly me though i stepped on mud or sth cos my whole feet was experiencing quite a sticky feeling...then i realise that it was actually blood!!

We stayed in huts, but it just so happened that the hut i was staying in had these 2 HUMONGOUS GIGANTIC blackish-brown moth!!!!!!!!!!!!! It even flew straight into my face!!! [ Thanks to Jason ] Anyway, we had 2 commandos [ Jason & Wei Song ] trying to shoo them out of the hut...they seriously took very long and even claimed they were being attacked by the moths...?!?!?!?! Then another commando joined in..and he took MY mat to fling one moth right underneath the bed...haha..was really farni...ALOT of shit stirring happened in the 4 wheel drive...at the expense of my poor lao da..whaha..the combination of me and siying proved too much for her to handle she wanted to jump of the 4 WD...then as usual ODAC peeps..we absolutely LOVE the camera..we took ALOT of photos while waiting for the KMT train to head back to spore.

Went to Zouk for Men's Health party with the some ODAC peeps the day before yesterday [ OHH!!! I met En at burger King!! Whaha ]....was totally disappointed...The guys were not good looking at all...I had to look at the TV to see what was going on because it was too crowded to see it live...I wanted to leave the moment I stepped in. We went to Ricotti to have cakes and desserts and Fishermen's Wharf after that..to enjoy AUTHENTIC Fish and Chips!!!

More chilling and slacking to be done....but i dun want to be too chill so that i cant be hot..whaha
K i shall stop before people start to freeze..

Ta~~

2008-04-24T01:06:00.005+08:00

MR MURPHY IS STALKING ME!!!!!!!

Murphy decided to loyally follow me throughout this exam period.........Thanks to him that my past few math papers are seriously CUI-ED.....stupid fedor has to post up the answers to the exam helping me confirm that I have failed the final....Have been living these few days with a heavy heart. Besides that, my family problems have been a huge distraction..been cooking for the family and stuff...( yes...bet some of you guys are raising your eyebrows now in disbelief..but i do cook decent meals!!!) After cooking i will be tired and all....not much time to study for my stats paper which I failed terribly during mid-term. I cant seem to buck up this sem and I am quite disappointed with myself...Oh well..kinda late for regrets. I have no idea how to convince myself to have a good time during hols because I dont think I deserve this break.

Im constantly telling myself that results arent everything....meditating it the whole day instead of studying..haha...

Joy better be goood and go study for your last paper!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Try your best and have no regrets....the problem is I KNOW I DIDNT TRY MY BEST....

2008-04-16T13:24:00.004+08:00

Demoralized...

I just finish my morning paper...and I did really badly.

Think it all started with yesterday when i tried to sleep at 12.45am only to realise that I would still be awake at 3.09am. I felt so panicky, kept forcing myself to sleep but it got worse instead.

Reached the exam hall on time, but still my heart was palpitating abnormally fast. I did all questions except for question 2 [worth 20 marks]. Then handed in the paper when time was up. I felt really sleepy throughout the entire exam.......On second look at the paper while discussing with my friends I realise I read 2 questions wrongly and because I didnt finish reading the questions I didnt answer some questions which were hidden in the question itself [another 25+ marks]. The worse thing was that I knew the answers to all these questions but.....I seldom cry because of an exam but this one really did it for me.

After the paper I kept waiting for my phone to vibrate more than 3 times but it never came. So even though I have yet to finish studying for my paper later at 5pm, I am still blogging now. I am in desparate need for an outlet. So much things have been happening to me and my family...so many changes and unfortunate stuff has befallen us. Its hard to burden by myself.....

Even though its exam time..my mind is not really focused as it should be...........................

I just want to say thanks to ALL my friends. You guys really make me feel like I am not alone...

2008-04-06T23:11:00.004+08:00

I'M HIGHLY STRESSED..

i have never felt so stressed before.....its not the normal kind of stress...its really a stress that is making me feel immensely depressed...i dunno what to do. I just realise exams are during week 14 and not 15...and i have not started preparing for anything yet..i feel lost..dunno where to start..im somebody who cant handle stress...i take stress vv vv vv vv vv badly....worse thing is that i cant study when i am stressed...but even if i start studying now..this vv minute..i wont be able to finish studying..that's a vv depressing thought for me...im beyond my threshold. Lastly..sorry dear for being so jumpy today....will contact you when i am ready ok? Love you.

2008-03-26T23:09:00.003+08:00

JUST A RANDOM DAY...

I've been receiving alot of feedbacks that I have not been blogging for a very very very looong time...haha..so here I am..back!!Finally as some would say....

Have had a super hectic few weeks with many crazy datelines...yin, en, aya would understand!!haha..and I have 2 presentations coming up and many many more!!Starting to feel the stress already..hai....
But sad reality is that im really unprepared for this semester..oh well...not tooo late to buck up I hope.

Anyway I have been having a flu for one week with no signs of me getting better...so today stubborn me decided to go see a doctor because of naggy Jason. I've got like 6 different kinds of medicines...there are some that are differentiated for days and nights...oh well..hope I will be OK by friday...cos my presentation is on friday...n I realy dun have much of a voice now...

Oh well....still have to do work when im sick....but my brain is really telling me to stop...but i just got stupid datelines to meet..not much of a choice I have really..

Praying really hard...
Joy

4th Month

2008-03-06T23:55:00.009+08:00

4th Month

The present I bought for him....so coool right??
The present he bought for me My 2nd favourite cookies!!!Double Chocolate cookies from Famous AmosJason had swordfish collarI had fish and chips

We celebrated our 4th month on 20th Feb...just after vday...I wanted to have a simple dinner..cos jason's wallet has a really big hole. But we ate at FISH n CO..haha..not so simple after all cos jason didnt want to eat in school.....he wanted to eat something special....cos he say special day...

Vday

2008-02-28T01:57:00.030+08:00

VDAY!

Photoalbum I gave Jason On the cab.......Dinner at SentosaDimsum!!!

Went to collect the car Jason rented after lessons, however we were running short of time...so Jason insisted on taking a cab to geylang from school..the cab ride lasted for a looong 1hr thanks to the huge JAM that day. We took longer to reach there than if we were to take an MRT...and it cost us $30!!!! We were suppose to reach Sentosa for dinner at 7pm...but we reached there around 8pm instead...We were suppose to go for a show at 8.40pm which was part of the package..which means we only had 40min to eat our semi-buffet dinner...The food was HORRIBLE...beyond words. The service provided was quite poor...we asked for sashimi as it was part of the menu presented in the package and the waiter replied that he brings whatever the chef made...it never did came out. Both of us barely ate anything...and we missed the show....So much for spending a bomb for dinner....we concluded to NEVER EVER go Sentosa for Vday!!!!! We walked around Sentosa after our miserable dinner...taking pictures here and there...then I found that my camera was SPOILT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Super suay...What can I say...ha...After that we went to Changi to look at aeroplanes take off and land for an hour or so then we proceeded to Changi Village to see Ah Kua..was super scary...........my heart missed a beat when we walked past one....i was really frightened by that guy...back view was quite hot...then when i walked up to him he turned around and i thought i saw a ghost!!! We wanted to eat at Changi Village but there wasnt much stuff to eat. So we went to GEYLANG!!! haha..both of us were really hungry...cos we didnt eat much for dinner...decided on this dimsum place...was REALLY GOOD...haha..less than 5% the price at Sentosa..but tasted a 1000 times better. We had dessert too...but both our phones went out of battery so we couldnt take any more pictures. Then we headed back school..by the time we reached school..it was close to 5am.

It was not the perfect day by all means...but THANKS dear for taking time to arrange all these for me...Im REAL LUCKY to have u..I LOVE YOU!!

POST VDAY..ha

I missed all lessons despite it being my busiest day of that week..haha..met Jason after his lessons...And since we had a car!!!!!!!!!! We decided to go round Spore to MAKAN..haha

First Stop : Beauty World @ Bukit Timah

We had carrot cake, wanton mee and freshly squeezed lime juice!!!

Second Stop : Island Creamery @ Farrer Road

We had Mudpie!!!!!! We finished it in 5min!! Haha..was really good!! Then we deciede to play with Mr McDonald..haha

Third Stop : 126 @ Geylang
Simply Heavenly...its like when the food goes into your mouth you cannot help but smile widely...haha..

Fourth Stop : 老母鸡汤 @ Geylang

Had herbal chicken soup and claypot rice!!!!!!!!!

Fifth Stop : Dessert Stall @ Geylang
Had Grass Jelly, Tau Huay and BUTTERFLY!!! HahaHaha....As you have seen....we were practically eating the WHOLE day...was feeling seriously BLOATED and majorly PUFFY...hahahaha...I really enjoyed the whole day!!! Was really fun...haha...Thanks Dear!

2008-02-14T01:14:00.047+08:00

LONG TIME NO BLOG....

I have not blogged for quite some time...have been really busy...plus CNY is sooo packed..ha..SUPER enjoyed my CNY!!!!!!

初夕:

Had 团圆饭 at my place..cos my dad is the 长子。Had scallop, gigantous prawns and all sorts of yummy yummy stuff...

Leftovers from steamboat...haha

Me with my Dad

Me and my brothers

Me and my neighbour's kid, Ryan

Ending the night off with a glass of ALIZE..perfect

初一:

Me and cousin, Shino

Went to my mama's house for heng hwa 'zor me' , was really nice!!! Get to eat it every CNY..one of my fav dishes of my dialect. Then went to zek gong and chim poh house to 拜年. After which, we proceded to my grandma's and kong kong's house for lunch. Its the same menu every year...but I never get sick of it..Let's see there is curry chicken, te tor teng, kiam cai ark, hokkien mee, lor ark, stir-fried veggie, tang hoon fried with veggie, roast duck, braised chicken, oooh...and this yr we even have sea cucumber!!! Thanks grandma, I LOVE YOU! We headed to Mary kor kor's house to spend the rest of the day..All cousins were there 21 of them + 3 wives. and 9 uncles n aunties. Some of us were gambling..haha..at first it was blackjack then it changed to in between which is such a FUN game. My luck was really -_-...Whenever I had like 2 and King or 2 and Jack or similar cards, I will always get an ace.............and whenever I got such cards I would take all that was in the pool only to lose them after I got the ace...needless to say I loss a LARGE sum of money..but it was still fun..The only complain I had that day was that the ace never come out when I was playing blackjack.

初二:

Starting to feel real tired already...haha..but sooo HAPPY that its CNY!!!!Started the day with my godparents coming to my house. Then went to my mom's godparents house. Went over to Ah Bee zek zek's new house, then to peter zek zek's new house. Peter zek zek is the youngest child my grandparents has..he is those kind of 无所事事，游手好闲 kind of person. Still dependent on my grandparents. Its been years since we all saw him...he is kind of wierd too...basically dun really like him. We all stayed for 20 minutes then left. Went to Lily kor kor's house for YUMMY YUMMY HENG HWA DINNER..haha..super happy. Cooked authentically by my mama...kudos to her..she cooked for 30 people while we were watching shaolin soccer..ha..Anyway the dinner was sooo good that we were all left craving for more.Luckily it was not full attendance...hahaha

初三:

My aunty and uncle from Australia arrived at Singapore ard 2.40am today. They are here for CNY!!!Later in the day Jason came to my house to 拜年. Then we went to my maternal grandparent's house for lunch gathering with my aunties and uncles cos they want to give Jason 红包. After which went to Jason's place and his yi(4) ma(1)'s place to 拜年. Then went for Biz Mag CNY gathering. Went to wei loong's place early to help buy stuff and prepare the food for steamboat. I didnt see what the guys got cos i though they will do OK by themselves...I was WRONG!!!!!!!! They seriously have a bad sense of estimation...10 packets of jing zhen gu..7 cans of bao bei..2 packets of scallop..3 thick slices of pork, a pack of ba kut, real crab meat, BALLS.....cabbage, 2 packets tofu, 2 packets hotdog, some kind of veg + tub of ice- cream + nata de co co and many many many more...The thing is guess how many ppl????? TEN...6 guys 4 girls...Soo we obviously did not finish everything...maybe half...haha..Then we started to play some retarded basketball game n peel the orange with ur mouth game..but it was fun...my team ended up losing so had to do a forfeit - 7 wonders of e world [ where 7 different body parts of your own body has to touch 7 different body parts of your partners body] Then went to play ban luck...wei loong was e big winner...tink its not my year to gamble..everywhere I go I lose money...oh well..I still have 初四 to try..HA!

初四:

Me making sushi!!!

Went to sayi's place to make SUSHI!!!!!! Jason was invited as well...but he was no help. Because....my cousins are all guys...and once they are gathered together they like to play soccer. So Jason joined them...while I stayed back to make sushi so they can have lunch after their game of soccer. I made baked and smoked salmon, unagi, prawn roe, crabmeat+egg+cucumber+crunchy pork floss sushi, we also experimented with sausage sushi and ba kwa sushi..since it was CNY..haha!! Jason said my sushi got STANDARD!!haha..sooo HAPPY. Then we went to meet kang hong and qiu ling to buy food for steamboat gathering at jason's house. The estimation was sooo much better this time..haha..Played blackjack before we had dinner...lost all the way till I became banker then won some back but not enough to recoup my losses..[Lisi is super lucky!!!!!! She was the BIG winner] had a good time with his friends though. After dinner, had dessert...SUPER FILLING!!! Then played blackjack with jason's mom, aunt and brother..as usual I lost..really not my year to gamble..ha..Back to school tomorrow...still feel like playing..like not enough...ha

2008-02-06T17:46:00.000+08:00

My Free Day!

TUESDAY:
I MISSED my tutorial AGAIN!!!!I really really wanted to go for this tutorial.....but I couldnt wake up. I thought that I would be able to wake up in time for the tutorial..as it was a 11.30am tutorial..but.....hai...quite disappointed with myself..anyway..went to eat lunch at JP. We went to bento box to eat. I had Chicken and Ham Pizza while Jason had Tempura Prawn + Black Pepper Chicken Bento Set. We had a loooong talk..as Jason had some unhappy stuff to tell me about. I just want to let you [Jason] know that I will ALWAYS support you no matter what. And you can always trust that you have me and your close friends to fall back on. Soo don't worry!!

After lunch, we went to shop around for new yr clothes..haha..but we couldnt find anything nice..so we proceded to Popular to get assessment books for our tuition kids. I found this publisher called EPB that caters to weaker students. I was really pleased with my buy.

Took an MRT to admiralty again. As expected, my tuition kid was not very pleased with her new assessment books..she complained at the first sight of it.

First: She did not do her homework........
Second: Everytime I ask her to do a piece of work she complains.
Third: 我讲一句，她顶十句。。
Then: She is starting to get bolder, really rude..she is not afraid of me at all..but the problem is that I cant be fierce.
Next: She keeps forgetting what I have taught her for the previous lessons!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I need to keep teaching her the same stuff every week..its so time consuming..
And: She constantly ask me for the time!!! If I go past the tuition time she will start complaining again...........

Ha..she is adorable..but very very tiring to teach..very difficult to teach too!!!!!! I hope I can do a good job..but there is only so much I can do....Her mother has to make sure she does her work at home, revisions and stuff. Her CAs are coming..so hopefully hopefully hopefully something good will come out of it.

After that we headed for DINNER!!

Then we made our wayback hall via MRT..
We were having a really HILARIOUS time talking about the "DEAD TERRORIST", "ÄCHMED", "SILENCE..I KILL YOU" ...was really just self-entertainment..but it was really fun!!!

CNY coming sooooooooooon.......
-HAPPY ECSTATIC MERRY ELATED CHIRPY JUBILANT JOLLY JOYOUS JOYFUL JOY

3.32am

2008-02-05T01:30:00.000+08:00

BUSY BUSY WEEKEND..

Well, had a biz mag meeting on friday night at The Coffee Club @ Holland Village. HA..was my first time at holland village..quite a nice place..like a mini clark quay..without the river. Anyway the meeting was a fun get together..since it has been so long since we met up. And we discussed about biz mag stuff n updates..Everything ended around 10+..o0o0o..the desserts there were FABULOUS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!The CHOC FONDUE and many other stuff were PERFECT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thanks WEE WEE!!! OH..wee wee cooked up dinner for us too..he is a chef there..WEE WEE is a nice guy...haha..Anyway I reached home at around 12.30am..Was starting to feel unwell..so went straight to sleep after a shower.

Its SATURDAY...woke up early to go 扫墓 with my dad n his parents..then went to hall to pick up e CNY cookies n Ba Kua I sold for Jason..$477 worth of stuff..so you can imagine how much stuff I had to carry from my room to my dad's car..then still have to go Jason's hall to grab stuff he forgot to bring back..was a really tiring morning..BUT...had great plans for the afternoon.

I planned to make KUEH BAULU!!Getting into the CNY mood..went to phoon huat to get our baking stuff..then I had Long John Silver for lunch. Went to Jason's house to bake..went I stepped into hishouse I was sooo amazed at the decor..ha..really put me in a super CNY mood. Then we started to bake..ha..was fun..but we only bought one mould....was really irritating..cos the mould was so small..need to wait so long to make many kueh baulus..ha..I was resting while waiting for the kueh baulu to bake in the oven..cos I was having a fever..Jason think its a throat infection cos my throat feels really sore.

Yup..Jason did contribute..

Me concentrating real HARD....

The CNY decor at Jason's House..done by Jason's Dad..ha..

Jason ate lots of kueh baulu that day...ha

Sunday!!We went to buy Jason's CNY clothes..bought stuff from Zara..o0o..and I bought this apple tank top for $23...really cute small apples that fills the tank top. Then went back cos Jason had to meet his friends..Anyway was sick..so went back to SLEEP..zZZZ..My parents then fetch me and Jason back at night..cos Jason couldnt catch a ride from Jovin's parents. Then my dad tried to psycho us into going for this AHS alumni gathering for CNY..ha..then I psycho him to pay for me but it didnt work..oh well..at least I tried..

Monday..MONDAY BLUES..start of the school week..but im super excited cos its going to be a short week!!!!!YAY..YIPPEE..WOOHOO..HA..*-* Went to the Food Fare thing..Really suck..nothing much..very pathetic..bought the crepe..was the only nice thing there...haha..then went back hall to rest rest rest..didnt do anything productive today.I feel like im getting better..Hope I will get well in time for the new year..then I can go CRAZY on snacks and super nice FOOD!!!Im a HUMONGOUS sucker for food..ha

Signing off~

2.48am

2008-02-01T02:22:00.000+08:00

Not in the best of moods...

I've missed 9 of my 8.30am classes since school started...Im trying to be more disciplined but its really hard. Im on the verge of giving up on my studies this semester..nothing is going well..except for maybe HW111A [Mastering Communication] and MPS811 [Defence Science]. The rest of my modules are a total blur...Its so bad till Im really at my wits end..dunno wad to do..trying to hold myself together..trying to think its ok..putting on this smile everyday..Its tiring me...I've never felt this hopeless before. Im really clueless as to what is going on in any modules now...

Besides my studies.....this week has been a down week between me and Jason. Well..i dunno how to put it..but its really frustrating me as well...Anyway, we ran together today and we talked about stuff...it didnt end too well though..Maybe Im just tired..will try to talk it out some other day I guess..

I have never been so tired before too..but its strange..I only attend about 1 lesson per day..I have no idea what am I doing...

BETTER BUCK UP JOY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

-SAD SAD JOY
Didnt mean for the oxy-moron...

2.44am

2008-01-30T02:12:00.000+08:00

TUITION DAY......*-*

Tuesday is suppose to be my FREE DAY..but thanks to FEDOR, I have to attend another tutorial session. Fedor cant teach and he needs to attend HW111A [Mastering Communication]. He walked out of the tutorial class in 15min during the first tutorial without teaching anything...a brave soul tried to ask him a question but the reply was that the question was a secondary school question and its not part of his responsibility!!!!! The whole class remained quiet after that.

Had lunch at NIE..LAKSA YONG TAU FU..tasted good..ha

Then went to ODAC booth at Canteen A for 2+ hrs, booth was fun..can see lots of ODAC peeps and seeing so many non-ODAC ppl signing up for trips makes me happy!!!!

Anyway..had tuition after that at ADMIRALTY..freaking FAR!! Managed to reach on time..waited for the kids to come down. We have our tuition in the void deck area as if we had it at their home they would keep going to the toilet.

Sooo...while waiting..might as well take some photos right??

ha..

And some silly ones.....

Then..the kids came down..so we started to teach.

The kids are really poor in EVERYTHING..I'm not kidding..I literally wanna *faint* *vomit blood* whatever.My tuition kid is especially noisy, its cute, but when I realise how bad her ENGLISH MATH & SCIENCE were....hai....I cant get angry at her..I mean she is just a kid and I really do find her cute. But seeing all the crosses on her homework makes me worry. The aim here now is to try to get her to pass her subjects. Really Stressed!!! She is in P4 and yet she doesnt know simple division..spent alot of time teaching her that today!! The tuition is suppose to last 1.5hrs yet we always take 2hrs cos of the things we cant finish..praying hard that things will get better..and that their attitude will improve.

Anyway..went to have dinner after tuition.

I had Chicken Cutlet Noodle + Veg + Wonton Soup

Jason had Pig Trotters and Rice

After dinner we headed back for Hall...

Got 8.30am class tml....which Im most probably gonna miss..ha

NITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2.58am

Monday..

2008-01-29T00:25:00.000+08:00

Monday.........

Its monday again......beginning of another week of school. I feel like im totally drained of all my energy..think its the hectic schedule of my life. Really really tiring.....Especially when all my modules for this sem are really tough. Dun really know how im gonna do for this sem. And I cant live without fun...and I dun study during weekends...Maybe time to change, but im really relunctant to do so. Being so tired....makes me a little moody...maybe a little expressionless..not as happy as my really HAPPY self...

Plus since I didnt go back this weekend..I really miss my FAMILY...thinking of them brings tears to my eyes..maybe it because im tired that's why im more emotional. Im actually helping my brother to get into a decent JC..help him appeal and stuff..

So..anyway..Monday is Jason's long day, I decided to buy him a brownie to 加油 him for the day.

I just couldnt resist the temptation....

Oh..and Jason bought me a wireless mouse!!! Cause my current mouse is a little cranky..THANKS for being so thoughtful!!

Hopefully things will get better...

-REALLY REALLy REALly REAlly REally Really really TIRED Joy.

12.51am

Sungei Yong

2008-01-27T16:43:00.000+08:00

SUNGEI YONG

Woke up at 3+ in the afternoon today...still feeling super super tired...went to Sungei Yong to trek yesterday[It was a virgin trek]. We were suppse to meet the FOOT peeps at 8am at Kranji MRT to go down to the customs together, but we woke up late, so we had to take a cab to Kranji MRT. However, the cab driver who claimed that he was new in the business did not know the way to Kranji MRT. So we took the cab all the way to Woodlands checkpoint. Then we took the bus to Larkin Bus Terminal.And we all had breakfast there..ate porridge, ba kut teh and you tiao.
Then we boarded the bus to KLUANG.
Trip Leaders discussing stuff.....
Then we took a cab to Sungei Yong from Kluang..the cab drivers were not sure of their way there as well....It cost RM65 for a two way trip!!!
Well...so we started to trek, we were relying on this paper with brief instructions to Sungei Yong. And as expected...we got LOST..And it started to rain.......Still being in NTU ODAC, there is always time for PICTURES!!!

After walking for quite some time, we were still LOST....................
After being lost for so long, we decided to let some guys to search for the right path to Sungei Yong Waterfall...while the others stayed behind to watch some LIVE DOCUMENTARY up close and personal.
We saw instances of MOTHERLY LOVE....
And.......Nature at its HOTTEST DEGREE........
[Look closely at the thing sticking out from the cow's below]
The trek didnt go well at all.......was quite disappointed as I didnt get to see my waterfall which i went all the way there for.
But this HORNY cow surely perked up my day..

Taking pictures while waiting...............

Couldnt resist taking this photo...the calf's were just sooo CUTE!!
Still Waiting............................

By the time the other guys got back it was close to 7pm, we spent a good 5+hrs there...when the taxi drivers came..they asked a villager that passed by where was Sungei Yong and he pointed at a route to our left.....[the cab drivers told us to take the middle route] Felt like KILLING them..but I needed them to bring me back to Kluang..so I controlled myself.
Anyway...we had dinner at MARY BROWN..

After which we boarded the 9pm bus back to Larkin. At first the bus was average..not too bad..quite comfy....THEN.....there wasnt enough spaces for everybody, think they sold one too many ticket. We changed to this bus that was sooooooooooo run down. They tried like almost 10 times before they could start the engine. And the chairs were SPOILT[we couldn lean on the chair else it would just go right down]...as if this was not enough there was a COCKROACH on board.....We reached Larkin at around 11+.Took a bus back to customs..then there was a JAM. So we alighted and walked to the customs. By the time we crossed customs it was around 12.50am. We were hoping and crossing our fingers really hard so that we need not take a cab back as the expenses for today was high enough as it already is. Luckily we had this nice bus uncle who waited for us, we took the bus to a place nearer school so that taking a cab back would be cheaper. The uncle told us to help him fill up a feedback form to help him get some bonus..ha..we gladly helped him. We reached back school around 2.3oam....

That's about it...was really an eventful day..ha

Going to take a nap for now..

Ta~

5.57pm

2008-01-27T03:06:00.000+08:00

PICTURES!!!

First up for dinner!! Sour Cream Pretzel and Freshly-Squeezed Lemonade from AUNTIE ANNE'S.

Then we ate Tom Yum Goong and Minced Pork with Basil Leaves plus Veg.
I forgot to take photos of those as Jason was really really hungry..haha

Then....we had something from OMU RICE.

After which,we were really full.....

BUT....there is always space for DESSERTS!!!

Then..we took lots of silly photos on the way home.....

4.38am

LOOO00ong Day

2008-01-26T02:55:00.000+08:00

LOOO00ong Day..

Didnt manage to wake up this morning for class, I have been missing most of my 8.30am classes[I have three 8.30am classes every week]. Anyway, left my lab early and missed 1 lecture entirely today. Effectively I had about 2hrs of lessons instead of 7hrs. Im trying really hard to kick this habit though..ha

Anyway, today I went to get my new TEVA sandals as Im going for a trek tml at Sungei Yong with FOOTcom peeps. After that we were suppose to go for Jason's DND stuff at Holiday Inn, but Jason got lost..so we didnt manage to go.[We spent a good half an hour or so walking around..]Things happened during that period but we eventually made up, and since we were STARVING we went to TAKA to have our DINNER!!

We took lots of pictures....but its really late now..so will put them up next time.
Tata..

3.32am

First Post!

2008-01-25T02:38:00.000+08:00

FIRST POST!!!

Finally done with the blog [thanks to lao da n bei bei] , but it still took me like 4hrs. I got so caught up with decorating and finalizing my blog till I lost track of time. I have mastering communications class in 5 hrs time. You cant be late for this class if not you have to do a mini presentation on "Why Were You Late This Morning". Anyway, Jason was so excited on being the first to post on my blog..ha..and he said that he will be the first to read my blog. Said he will read it when he wakes up which should be around 8am as he has lessons at 8.30am too.

I just celebrated my 3rd month with Jason on the 20th at Fullerton, will update you guys about that some other time. Its been 6 months since I've known him and its been a blast!!

Its getting late...so...
Signing off..
-HAPPY but TIRED joy

3.11 am