Life so far...

I have been going through some major changes in life..no longer a student..but turning into a financially independent adult eager to forge my own life..

Life is definately precious..our time here on earth is limited..being free to do anything I want without thinking about any consequences is a far-fetched dream of mine..

I feel like I have been living under a shadow..like a puppet..am I really happy?

Who am I?

I was hoping that through my job I would be able to find some kind of release..some kind of happiness..but I think I am taking a few steps backward..I see people differently..what they truly want from me..my relationships..what can it withstand..

I do not care if people believe me or not..I have a really simple brain..I have no idea how the world works..how people think..why do they think like that..Maybe I am not made to survive this world..perhaps somewhere else....

Where am I going?

My mind is in a whirl..Im lost..I don't know what to do..where to start..how to begin..

Someone help me.......guide me...