Back from Spain....and 3 more days to Svenska Tentamen[Swedish Exam]

Went to Barcelona and Madrid for 1 week...with transits at Bergamo, Italy. It was a really tiring trip because of all the sleepovers at the airports....but nonetheless still enjoyable...Shopping was the main highlight...however...due to limited funds...I tried hard not to go as crazy as I would normally be...so I only spent Sgd$160. But I really regretted controlling myself...I really like this jacket but I didnt buy it...and its driving me almost insane...cos its a Spanish brand and I will not be able to find that shop in Sweden, much less in Singapore...hai...oh well....I made my decision...

I only attended maybe 4 or 5 classes for this semester...and exams are starting...think I may start to panic soon...

I didnt do much studying these few days as I wasnt in much of a mood...I have been really upset over something...And its not something I can change....The feeling of being messed with...the feeling of having your hopes raised so high only to crash to nothingness just because of the mishandling of a situation...No matter how hard I try to get over it..I cant...I felt like I maybe over-reacting...but I am glad that there are others that feel the same as me...makes me feel less alone......because of this decision...I will be leaving uni life with a tinge of regret....I hope someone can help me or do something to change this decision...but I understand that its not possible...and I dont really wanna hurt others because of my wants and wishes....no matter how strong this desire of mine is....I dont think I have ever wanted something so much for myself...but now I am not able to get it...I think I will need time to live with it...

I really need to gather myself together and start studying for my exams before its much too late...

To my dear...thanks for standing by me,...and for being so nice and understanding towards me....thanks for making me feel so precious and dear to you....thanks for giving me strength and bringing me laughter...I love you so so much...

46 days more..and I will be back in your arms...I really look forward to the day...but you will be really busy with commitments and responsibilities...I hope I will be understanding enough...

I hope to be able to support you and be there for the things you do...and I am really proud of all your accomplishments....things that I can never do....

So...do me proud ok my dear?

I love you...

Missing you much.....
Your daughter, your girlfriend, your roomie, your bestie, your good good friend, your listening ear, your eating buddy and much much more.......
-Joy